troubled little ones - shukri hussein (bts book recommendations txt) 📗

chapter 4

Today, for the first time in two years,Nath came back, mum called him back.On one hand, iwas extatic to see him because it would probably mean that mum would finally go back to normal but i was also frightened that what happened two years ago would occur again.I had never seen my mother so excited about something in my life,RING RING, the doorbell rang i ran to the edge of the stair case to see who came, my mum started galloping to the door in joy and amusement.She puuled open the wooden door and in came a new and improved Nathaniel Clark. I was gobsmacked when i saw the changes to his looks after prison.He had slightly tanned skin, his hair was black and he had the mos beautiful shade of blue for his eyes.Im going to be completeley honest, Nath has always been handsome but i, like many other girls am not overwhelmed by his charming appearance.Instead i see him as a monster.Part of me was wondering how bad of a parent my mum is being for bringing this sex offender back to our home but he was too attractive, i couldnt help but stare at his face.Nath was wearing a dark leather coat and jeans that matched his hair so perfect.All of a sudden, a distraction had blocked my view of looking at the masterpiece before me, my mother she pounced on him like a cat."I missed you so much Nathy" she cried as he embraced her with his nurturing arms."where are the kids?" He asked in a polite yet commanding tone. "oh theyre upstairs, dyou wanna meet them? LOUISE! DAVE! OLIVER! come down stairs you have a visitor!!!!!" she roared . the boys raced downstairs barging me on the way."come and say hi to Nathy, you remember Nathy dont you boys". Her suddenly generouse behaviour startled me, My legs trembled as i struggled to come downstairs, memories were racing in my thoughts and making my heart thump.It was discomforting. "hi guys!" Nath said cheerfully to the boys, they, as they dont know any better, ran to him and he scooped them up with this huge arms. "i got a surprise for you" Nath whispered quite loudly, "what!" exclaimed the boys in unison. He reached into his pocket and pulled out two toy cars.My little brothers were now officially brainwashed, intrigued by the gift they had just gotten, vexation and fury grew like a disease in my stomach and lungs as i struggled to breathe. "Louise" "come over here sweety" He said in his soothing voice, i cautiously approached him without getting too close. "look, whatever you think i did to you, its over now ok? two years have passed and now i am ready to start a fresh life so i would appreciate it if you didnt do something like this, if you have a problem with me, adress me or your mother, not the police. I already done two years without a reason, i am not willing to do another two so its all up to you"For a minute i was about to go balistic, then i realised there is no escape from mother if i go wrong this time, so i decided to stay calm and go with it even though the heartbreaking thought is burning me inside, i decided wisdom is the best path to take in times like this, i will figure something out.

chapter 5

"im telling you Jannie, just do it, they are not doing you any good anyway so you might aswell"

"Yeah but if i do it, theyll cut of my child benefits!"

"just think about it ok?"

I later found out what child benefits ment, As you can imagine, i was only nine at the time so it was kind of dificult to comprehend what my mum and Nath were on about.I decided to just let it go, since i didnt understand,i just left it at that.About a week later, it was a sunday morning. The boys and I were still asleep when we heard calm footsteps approaching our bedroom door. It was mum and and Nath.I sat up and histerically rubbed my eyes to see what was happening.Mum stood like a cheerleader behind Nath whilst he violently grabbed my blanket and threw it to the other side of the room along with the boys. "GET UP" he commanded us, In unison, Me, Dave and Oliver stood up like soldiers in the military. My mother, still in her dirty robe grabbed Dave by the wrist and Nath took me and oliver. My skinny little arm was being crushed by this huge guy, I tried to get him to let go but the more i struggled, the tighter it got. HE dragged oliver and I visciously down the stairs whilst mum followed with Dave. They took us right out the door, not even giving us a chance to get changed.Little Dave was crying, but Oliver stayed strong and tried to resist. Nath and Mum shoved us in the back of Naths car. All i saw was the back of Nath and mums bodies when he slammed his foot on the gas.

chapter 6 we arrived in a forest full of old rusty trees that clearly hadnt recovered from 1920's autumn. The atmosphere was quite dull and creepy, "get out!" screamed mother, With that, we all climbed out of the stinky old bucket Nath calls a car. I looked around, waiting for something to amuse me, but nothing did, i was strongly craving to go back to my bed and just rest until my aching bones and skin had recovered but clearly mum and Nath werent in the mood. What happened? i thought to myself, trying so hard to figure out the reason for all this nonsense. I could see Dave from the corner of my eye shivering then Oliver approaching him with his arms ready to cuddle his little brother. Thoughts and confusion stunned me. VROOM VROOM, i heard a loud screech shriek from behind us, we all turned around only to see a car speeding a way into the distance leaving mist behind them "NOOOOOOOOOOO" i screamed, with tears running down my cheeks "Where are you going!!!!!" ,Dave and Oliver just stood there speechless choked by shock and astonishment. With nothing left to do, i bolted towards the direction of the car, hoping i would find them, but they were long gone.Confused devestated lostand hungry, i went back to the boys somehow the walk back seemed very long and sickening, everything was spinning around like a round about. The tree's darkness covered me like a blanket and that darkness represented my sorowful, aweful life. for a second while i was walking through the clumpy leaves, i actually considered ending my life, then i remeber the boys who were innocently waiting for me. so with that, i sped up. "what are we going to do know" said Oliver, desperetely trying to calm his tone down so Dave wouldnt get paranoid."i dont know" i replied in monotone.It was starting to get cold and we only had our pajamas on with no shoes, how unthoughtful could those useless idiots get? I was increasingly unable to control my mood and soon enough, i flipped. "WHAT THE FUCK IS HER PROBLEM! THAT USELESS BITCH I HOPE SHE DIES AND GOES TO HELL."petrified, the boys faces whitened as if they had seen a ghost, for a split second, i thought my power to intimidate them like that was pretty cool but i quickly realised my wrongdoing and apologised."im sorry" that apology was truly sincere.I decided we needed a place to sleep and fast so i quickly ended the cheesy talk. After hours of literally walking with no shoes on the muddy floor with our skinny pale feet, we luckily spotted a road with cars speeding back and forth. For some reason , my thinking process was really slow and my mind was rushing with a billion thoughts, i looked down to get a better look at the boys and Oliver turned around to look at me.With the worlds straightest face he was making calmly, he said " wait here" The bravery and courageousness in his tone reassured me. Oliver took about 10 steps ahead of us towards the road, the vulnerability in the way he was walking tore me apart, i felt extremely guilty for letting him take this threatening step to save us.He stood still for a while, his eyes searchingly panning around as if he were looking for something in paticular.There was seriously no doubt in my mind that Olly would let us down, his intelligence and bravery cooled me down like a cold beverage on a hot summers day, in other words, his presence soothed me. After what seemed like forever, he stuck out his thumb and waved it infront of incoming vehicles. "what is he doing" Dave cutely asked. "HEs trying to get someones attention so they can help us" I replied in a calm, nurturing voice. Soon enough, A car finally pulled over to the forest side and a couple (i think) climbed out of the beautiful black mercedes. I could see from behind the front seats that two children were inside the car, they looked quite happy and glaring into their portable consoles admiringly completely oblivious of whats happening in the real world out there. The woman approached us first, she bent down to Olivers height and held him gently by the hand. "are you okay darling? Whats wrong and why are you here all alone?"Her voice made her sound really friendly and i felt abit better when i heard it, at first i thought she would run away with Oliver when she held his arm, so i was quite tensed but her voice seemed motherely and loving."No, our mother and step