The OOBS - CC Raz (free reads txt) 📗

because I figure you won't be able to answer so why bother? But I felt like I shoud start asking you. Because I really do want to know.

Have you spent any time with Chase? I know that you had fun with him in NY, so maybe you guys have hung out a little while you've been up there. Better than sitting there all alone, right? And I'm sure your mom would NOT be opposed to letting you see him. Actually, I feel like since she knows about Jacob, she'd push it even more. So I'd like to think that you get a little bit of freedom, hanging out with Chase. I hope you're having SOME fun, whether it's with Chase or someone else. Keep busy, by girl.

You're probably enjoying the not-so-scalding heat up there. It was 109 degrees at 10:30 today. HOT. But that was out at Ken's house. As we traveled back to Wickenburg it cooled down quite a bit. But now it's the hottest part of the day, so it's hot again. I'm enjoying the AC. What is the tempurature like up there? I know that in Idaho it was REALLY hot if it got up to 95. But Colorado is still a little farther south than Idaho, so it's probably a little higher than that. Well, maybe in late July and August. Early June, it's probably pretty cool. Maybe late 80s, low 90s? Or maybe I'm way off. I could look it up on the internet, but... eh. I don't care THAT much. This computer's too slow to be running more than one tab at a time. Speaking of the heat, you might not ever hear from Bailey again. She's stuck cleaning her dad's truck. It's over 100 degrees, she's sunburned, and she says it hasn't been cleaned in 20 years so who knows what kind of trash monsters were born. She'll either get eaten, or shrivel up and become a raisin. Neither of those sound like great options, but... I think that's all that she has. I just thought that I'd let you know, in case you think you haven't heard from her because she decided to drop you on your ass. Because.... that just won't happen. But hopefully you know that.

And I gotta go now. Got kids to take care of, and I should probably take the dog out. I'll email you again tomorrow, but it won't be until the evening. We have cheer practice from 9-5. Whew. I have no idea what she plans to do with us for that long. We are going to be EXHAUSTED. I will sleep REALLY well tomorrow night. But I'll still send you something, even if it's just a quick text message to your email. You'll get something. :) And I'll probably send you something more tonight.

I gotta go now. For real this time. Mom just called and needs me to go pick her up from the funeral.

Still praying, still staying strong
Love,
CC Raz

OOB#Sixth text

6/2

Oh, Gwen. :) I dunno. I'm tired. It's only 9:30 but I just feel so tired. But in 11 1/2 hours I start my 8 hour cheer practice. What are we even going to do for 8 hours? I mean, come on. It's ridiculous. But I guess we'll see. I'll just want to sleep about halfway through. 8 hours is a long time to cheer. And dance. And stunt. And whatever the hell else we'll be doing. She said we'll start out with a workout. DUnno what Julynn's workouts consist of. But I don't think we'll last all day. I mean... Really? I dunno. I feel like if we're practicing for 8 hours a day we should at least be going to competition. I have to remember to find out what days we'll be having practice regularly after the first couple weeks, and what times (the first couple weeks is our skills camp or whatever). Because then I have to tell Pam when I am available to work. Wow. I'm gonna have a full summer.

I gotta go now. I'm falling asleep. Which is ridiculous because of how early it is. But... yeah. I'll send you something tomorrow. Hopefully it'll actually be something that's not me rampling on uselessly about nothing.

I hope you're having a good time. Keep praying for strength from God, because that's a source that you can ALWAYS rely on. :)

Still praying, still staying strong
Love,
CC Raz

OOB#Bookrix?

6/3

There might be a good sign. Bailey said that she found the book onbookrix with all of our emails to you in it. So that means that you'regetting them. I haven't had a chance to read it yet because I'm at mynana's house for the night and her computer won't let me log in toBookRix, and so then it won't let me read the book. So I'll just readit in the morning and send you an email then.

Now... why aren't you replying? I know that whatever time you haveonline you have to be careful. But SOMETHING. The BookRix thing isgood, but... I don't know. All it tells us is that you're getting theemails. But if you have time to post them on there, why don't you havetime to reply to us? Even if it's just a "Hey I'm fine I love you guysmud" kind of thing. Every day that I don't hear from you... it scaresme. I have no idea what's going on with you. And it scares me.Especially up in Colorado... I know you're around people who are olderthan 21, so they can easily get some weed and I just don't want you tolose Gwen.
JK. I know that wouldn't happen. That is NOT what I'm worried about.But Mr. Elinski and I were joking about that last week. "Cassie, youknow she's fine up there. Colorado? She's got access to weed. Whatteenager wouldn't love it?" Something along those lines.

Sorry I only sent you one email yesterday. And maybe a text message? Idon't remember if I actually sent it before going to bed or not. Ihope so. I'll check in a little while.And sorry I haven't had a chance to really email you today before now.But you know. I've been busy. Tomorrow, though, you'll probably begetting a ton again. It's hard not talking to you. I miss my otherhalf.

Just for the record... You know how when you get married, that personis supposed to be your other half? Well... Uh uh. Your half is taken.And let's say you get married to Jacob. And he claims that he's yourother half.
Jacob= Gwen's other half
Cassie= Gwen's other half
Jacob=Cassie
No offense, but... I don't want to be Jacob. He's a boy and... I really don't want to have to participate in the conversations he wouldhave with KC. Just.. No. So... just so we're clear... I'm your otherhalf. And Jacob can just be your husband who you love dearly. But...No. I just couldn't do it, Gwen. I refuse to become a boy, even foryou.
Plus, it would make it REALLY awkward when you go in for a kiss.

I gotta go now. Nana's kicking me off the computer. We're gonna watcha movie instead. So I'll just text you an email with the rest of thestuff. :)

Still praying, still staying strong
Love,
CC Raz

OOB#Seventh text

6/3

Seriously. Talk to me. Now that I know you can... You need to. Because now there's a whole new set of worries that keep popping up. I'm not trying to stress you out or anything. But I need to hear from you.

I had a bunch of other things I wanted to tell you. But I can't remember. So I'll just send it to you when I remember.
Just remember that I still love ya. And I don't wanna lose your love toniiiiight. I just wanna use your love toniiiiiight.
because pengwens on a vacation far away. Cant come around and talk it over. Got so many things that I wanna say. You know I like my girls a little bit older. And I don't wanna lose your love tonight. I just wanna use your love tonight.

but I really am not gonna use it. I am telling the truth though when I say I don't wanna lose your love. But it's not the same kinda love as the guy in the song is talking about. :)

I gotta go right now. I'll send you something more in a little while.

I love ya Pengwen

still praying, still staying strong
Love,
CC Raz

OOB#Flutterby

6/4

Once I find a computer that works, I am going to post a book onbookrix that has all my emails to you on it. Because... maybe youposting that book is your way of saying that's where we can contactyou? I don't know. I HAVE NO IDEA. But I'm going to try it. I'llprobably still send them to your email. But I also want to send themto you on BookRix. Not send them to you, but make them available toyou on there. If maybe you can comment on the book or something? Idon't know. There's just so much of this that doesn't make any senseto me.

We now know that YOU are getting