My poetry. - Elizabeth Taylor (always you kirsty moseley txt) 📗

Perfect? I think not

 You honestly think I'm perfect?

You honestly think I care?

Well I'm not 

So can you stop with the yelling?

please?

It makes me cry.

You might think I'm to quiet,

Or that I'm super shy

But the truth is you really get to know me

And I'm a loud and annoying person

People make fun because I notice things

Probably things no one else would

But I'm different

I've moved on from that fact

I've accepted that I'm weird

So why can't you?

It's my life not yours.

I'm not going to be perfect at everything

So just be happy that I'm me

 That I'm true to myself

Unlike some

Fake tanned

Skinny legged

Beach blonde bimbo's out there

They are cheaters

Who date you for a prop

So they don't look lonely

So they can be "liked"

But I'm real

So honestly

I'm not perfect

But honestly

I do not care!

 

Voices

There is a voice

It fills my head

Telling me lies

Making me feel dead

 

People tell me I'm 'fine'

But they don't hear the words

That fill up the spaces

All I ever heard

 

It tells me I'm fat

So I pull at my skin

I eat less and less

Yet I still don't feel thin

 

I stare all day

Because even when I talk

I feel unheard

And all people do is mock

 

But when I hear your laugh

Or see your smile

My heart begins to melt

And beat like I just ran a mile

 

There's the little voice

That I now ignore

Listening only to yours

Making me feel so much more.

Flaws and Beauty

 I try to catch my breath

But I look at you again

It gets harder to breathe 

As I get lost in your beauty

 

You seem so perfect 

So I choose not to disturb your beautiful aura

Looking at you from afar

Trying my hardest to stay invisible

 

But when you glance around the room 

And our eyes happen to meet

My hearts starts to leap

And my face turns a deep red

 

It makes me afraid

When you smile and wave

So I rush away

Leaving before I'm required to speak

 

When I talk

Stupid things come out

That you don't need to hear

I leave before I can embarrass myself.

 

So you can never see my flaws

Frozen

 Every time you come to my mind

It's like I'm frozen in place

I try to be nice and kind

But this feeling scares me when I see your face

 

Afraid to tell you how I feel

Scared of getting a broken heart

So I won't; I'll just get hurt and heal

But you're so funny, kind, and smart

 

I don't know if I'll get over this silly crush

But seeing you makes my heart race

My limbs become mush

And my mind begins to pace.

Hello

 You yell at me

From across the room

Seemingly for no reason

But I'm enclosed in my tomb

 

Trying to block out

Every vile twisted word

That is said to or about me

And my fingers get curled

 

My blood starts to boil

From all this pent up anger

To the world  for trying

Everyday; to break me, saying I need to learn

 

But nothing can teach me

Without using kindness

And trying to break me

Because I'm just a fragile mess.

Goodbye

 Crawling out of my personal hell

It's what everyone calls my home

But 'home' doesn't seem to fit

As I lie in bed hoping I was alone

Yet every single morning I wake

Into this cruel unforgiving world

As people try to change me

My fingers start to become curled

Fists clenched at my sides 

I make the decision for tonight

As my fingertips reach the cold steal blade

It stings as it slits my wrist but I'm 'alright'

I'm already gone when you walk in

Your fake scream the only sound for miles

As I lay dead and forgotten

I finally dropped all the fake smiles.

Caring? What is that?

Who even cares about us

Who wants to know anymore

For all our lives we fought

Not knowing what was instore

 

You were the absent father

And I the broken child

As I fought the tears each night

No happy memories were filed

 

I wasted so much time

Trying to impress you

But I never really stopped to think

About why my sky was so blue

 

All of the pain that was caused

Was because I was trying too hard

To do somehting right

So I was left all scarred.

Girl Burning in the Sun

 Old friends were very wise

I told you about your father

You told me about the other side

Where darkness and light are hated

 

In those dreams

You were behind me 

Just behind

But everytime I turned

You dissapeared

 

Not filled with laughter

She saw me weeping

Unafraid you walked into the sun.

Living Nightmare

 'Cause I'm just a living nightmare

Gonna crawl away and hide

'Cause I can see into your soul

And you can see into mine

I hate to say it

But you might be the one

That's meant to be with me

Through all of eternity

'Cause I'm just a living Nightmare

Crawling and hiding from despair. 

Thoughts

 People are surrounding me

Talking very loud

Yet not a single word

Enters my fragile mind

 

Then I hear some rumors

People calling me names

So I'm caught in this rut

Thinking that I'm not worth it

 

Thoughts swarm in my head

About suicide and cutting

Making me blind

To those who actually want me

 

No one's here to find me

Save me from the dark

Pull me from the