My poetry. - Elizabeth Taylor (always you kirsty moseley txt) 📗

pits

I'm covered in tar

 

Tar is the rumors

That suffocate my mind

Dragging my elation down

And makes me feel NOTHING...

Love Unwanted

 Love can hurt

It can lead you astray

Blindness is common

Especially in the day

 

Nothing heals the pain

Of a love gone wrong

Making you feel lost

But you were all along

 

All the lies he sold

You bought them

As if they were diamonds

All to precious to hold

 

You handed him the gun

Though you expected

That he wouldn't shoot

He did; a little bit demented

 

Your love for him

It has withered

With the summer sun

Like a snake, away he slithered

 

He left a gaping hole

Making you feel unwanted

Pushing everyone away

Your soul, now forever haunted.

Finding Myself

 Carry me home

To the place that I belong

I have been on my own

Singing to my own song

 

Set free so I can roam

Wandering with no aim

I've been lost and found

Trying to find my name.

The Library

 Stories you're told

Aren't always complete

If you don't listen to both sides

Where the missing ends meet

 

But when you have plans

And the other person fails

Your rage starts to boil

And your strongest fist sails

 

You act before you listen

Anger starting to subside

But you can't stop the fight 

For now the other persons remarks are snide.

Thank You for Hope

 I feel right now

The happiest I've been

In a while

As I see your smile

Lighting up when I see your face

 

Light floods the hallway

Creating a safe path to roam

As you look into the shadows

Seeing all your deepest fears

Creeping towards the edge

 

They try to scare you

And makes you stand in the dark

But you push against them

Prefering to walk in the light

As your fears all subside

Beauty Around Us

 Light steaking across the sky

As a shooting star

Enters our atmosphere at last

Falling fast towards the Earth

 

A single flower

On a rocky, barren mountain side

Springs forth whilst bringing hope

That life can sprout again

 

Jagged edges of beauty

Surround the waters shore

Climbing steep and high

To get to the cliff's peak.

Alone by Choice

 Depression 

It clouds my thoughts

As my vision goes blury

Slowly I become self-conscious

 

Clawing at my skin

Trying hard to hide

Wanting to forget

The rumors around me that fly

 

Taking away my freedom

Making me seem 'normal'

Dragging along behind

My movements becoming sluggish

 

Shutting people out 

It seems my only true talent

Not wanting to be judged

Turning to pain and eating

 

Pills that started

Only to numb the pain

Now just become

A constant thought on my brain

 

Dying slowly inside

Trying not to cry

People all try to help 

But they only freak me out

Blank Expressions

 Every morning you wake

You are fresh

A blank slate

 

You choose your way

Though happy and dark

Always seem grey

 

Moving with precision

You plaster a smile

Across your blank expression

 

Laughing and talking

All of it's pretend

Just to cover up your pain

 

As times goes on

Faking it gets old

So finally the mask slips

 

It falls too far to grasp

Unable to be found

As you slip behind a closed door

 

You search as you become lost

Because people don't care

They just leave you behind

 

You finally find it

But this time it's real

Because that smile you have 

Has had time to heal

Faceless

 You treat me like garbage

Yet you're the one who walked away

Stopped trying to see us

On all of our birthdays

 

You belittle me till I cry

Making me feel like trash

But you can stop acting all tough

In the end you'll just crash

 

You break through my walls

Yet you aren't my dad

You may be blood

But love isn't to be had

 

You can't act like my father

When I'm doing fine on my own

Even though I've tried to have you see me

My true self has yet to be known

 

Telling me I need to learn my place

Yet you seem to forget yours

Because I will say again

The place of my father is not yours.

A short poem about Anorexia

 

Food.

It’s a constant thought in my brain

But not to eat it

That would drive me insane

I can’t eat 

Otherwise I’d want to die

My friends all try to make me

But I can’t bring myself

To chew and swallow

The food that’s needed

To keep me alive.

So that’s my Achilles' heel,

Food.

Food is the enemy

 

Food is the enemy

Ana is my friend

She helps me

To lose the unwanted weight

Because I’m fat

I am also worthless

Say that I’m thin

But I won’t believe you

I’ll believe my truth

The truth that I see

Anytime I look in the mirror

Because I’m not okay

I am most definitely sick

But people don’t ever notice

They don’t even seem to care

I’ve asked for help before

But they just pushed me away

Told me I was fine

So here I am again

Believing that food

Food is the enemy.