dairy of a fatie ( finshed) - samantha strayer (inspirational books .txt) 📗

hi paper how are you i am ok i guss. you know how every family is diffrent well that is right. Here let me start from the beging. my name is samantha i am over weight by 90 pounds. i have two grate friends Desiree and Tori. they are both over weight too. my dad beats me and my mom just says that one day he will stop. i am in the 8th grade i am 14. today was a nother school day i woke up at 6 :00 and i grabbed long sleave shirt and black pants. 

i have blond hair and brown eyes. I cant eat anything beacause he thinks i am to fat to eat. I went to the bathroom to take a shower. after 30 minets i got dressed and but my hair in a pony and left the house i have to walk to school same reason. I hum on the way there. I finally reach school i headed to my first hour Art i love art. i take my seat and start to draw a little girl she was crying. my dad abuses me he hits me and sexauly touches  me at night i am still a vergin for one rason my mom takes me to a doctor that will tell her if i am or not. so he cant touch me well in me.  any who the kids start to pile in the snobie girls and boys laugh at me i ingore it but it hurts. i didnt really pay any attchin to the teacher or nothing i just want to draw. the class bell rung telling us it was time to go. i got up and went to my next class. Sit in the way back to be un seen about five minets later the kids pour in. then just before class begain my bff Desiree came through the door. she smiled and sat back with me. class went on forever i wanted to skip the reast of the day so i did. but as i was waking to the doors the poplur kids saw me and walked up to me.

the boy i used to have a relshonship walked up to me and said, " why in the helll are you going?" I rolled my eyes and said, " leaveing my mom is here to pick me up." i lied he pushed me to the floor and yelled, " that is what you get fot lieing to me, babe you know what to do." i was scared as she came clouser to me with a knife in her hand. she walked clouser to me then cut my face it was bleeding. she smiled and walked away. i got up and ran out of the door and to my house. no one was home and here i am wrighting to you. OH SHIT I CAN HEAR MY MOM COMEING 

                                                                     GOT TO GO 

 hi today was a grate day like the best day ever.  It was beautiful i woke up with amazing breath then I took a shower and the hot water was awsome. i ware such a cute top frome rainbow its in greenville. any way I i tryed to put on makeup and it worked out wonderful. the bus was right on time and there was as new boy he was cute. he has black hair and brown eyes a little buff. he was so cute. and his smile his smile was the best thing ever. any way i ignored him just to keep it safe. it was 3ed hour when i hear cryin in a janders clouset i opend the door to find Jon sitting there. He rased his head up and wisperd, " i am so sorry." he took out a knife and before he could do anything i ran to him and took it out of his hands i was so scsred i sat next to him and hold him as he cryed and cryed. 

about an hour later he stop crying and he stared to speek he was shaking. i rasied his head and said, " why did you do that?" he just looked at me and told me why he is abused at home sexualy and phacaly my mouth drooped i stared to cry beacause that was happing at home too.  he stoped talking and said, " why are you crying?"  i wisperd that is happing at home to me too. he and i stop crying once we realzied it was time to go home i gave him my number and went home and here i am wrighting to u i have to go supper time bye 

i just got another woppen from my dad and mom.  it a hard thing to wright. any way i found out Jon lives next door some times i can hear the abuse. like last night i could hear him saying no please not tonoght dad. the man would laugh i wanted to cry and yell at him to tell him to leave him alone. but i cant. that night i went to his window. he jumped saying no please. i gaped saying " shh its just me." he sighed and said, " why are you here." i frownd and said, " i heard you and your father over at my house.  i heard him say fuck i wanted to hold him but i didnt i was so scared. 

but insted i said. " lets go were  running away and never looking back." his face turned white and said, " your making fun of me arnt you." i was insalted and mas so i yelled. " look i am abused at home to just not in that way." he face turned red. and yelled, " keep your voice down and no you are not." i got so pissed and turned around and lifed my shirt where my dad wipps me. he gasped and stared to cry. i put my shirt back and rubbed his back. he stop crying and said, " if we do this were are we going to go?" i cloused my eyes and said, " i have an old cabin in a diffrent state we can go there." he smiled and said," why not." i went back in my room and packed. I looked out of my window and saw in packing. i was done less then a secent . I knocked on his window. he climbed out and looked at me, then he kissed me. i blushed and said, " ok lets go." We ran down the raod. i had to stop at times to ketch my breath i was lowing us donwn. we finally made it. 

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we made it, we were on the drive way of the cabin i couldnt believe my eyes. it looked like it did when i was 4. i had a few memorys about it.  i smiled and ran to the door it was locked and it had a sighn that said. " no truspasing" i looked under the rug and there layed the key. i un locked the door and we went in side it was dusty. i coughed and smiled then turned to him and said, " welcoome home." smiled sat on the couch. he smiled and sat next to me the passed hour we just sat there i got a little hungry i wanted to sleep i looked at him and said, " are you tired if so there is a bed on the 2ed floor and you can sleep there." he smiled and said thanks i nooded and went up stars to the a nother room. 

i almost fell a sleep when i heard him yelling down the hall. i jumped and ran to his bedroom and saw him laying in sweat i ran up to him shaking he was yelling no i was skared so i sang to him he slowly started to calm down. i sighed and climbed in the bed with him. holding his hand. he was strong i was worred about him i fell asleep i woke up with the sun in my face i turned around to find Jon sleeping i tryed to sit up but jon wont let me his legs were on mine i layed back down and fell asleep. 

I woke up by him yelling again i didnt know what do so i shook him untill he was awake he alomst hit me but i blocked it. he shot up looking like he was in a nightmare i couldnt help not to cry. I looked at him and