Never Meant To Belong - Chyna Collins (book club suggestions .txt) 📗

movie and sandwich. When I opened the door I was in total shock. It was Mr.Posley, out of all people Mr. Posley came to my house. “Hello Amerie, sorry to intrude.” He said “Its okay, come inside.” I said moving out the way. “Thank you is your parent’s home?” he asked with one of my favorite smiles on his face. “No they probably went out on a date.” I said with a smile. “Sit down.” I gestured towards the couch. He took a seat and so did I, next to him. “Titanic, a classic, one of my favorite movies.” He said “Are you serious, it’s one of my favorites too, I think it’s a beautiful movie.” I said “What’s your favorite part?” he asked “When he draws the picture of her.” I said “I mean the way he looks at her with love in his eyes catching every detail of her body, making her the center of his attention.” I said “That’s deep, ohh here.” he said reaching in side his jacket and pulling out a video. “Here is the movie about Amerie. It’s called “Cameo Lovers” wow you thank you, I’ll watch it as soon as possible.” I said with a smile. “No rush, I thought you should look at the movie, I mean what you said in class was really deep. And the way you said it sound like you really felt what she was going through.”He said, he looked at me with deep eyes then moved his face closer “well probably can relate.” I said. Then he kissed me, with his might, it tasted good like I dreamt, it made me want him more than before. Then he pushed me away and stood up. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. What have I done? You’re my student, I’m you teacher. I have to go, I’m sorry.” He said heading towards the door, then before I know it he was gone. I was still in a daze about what happened. He kissed me; my 25 year old history teacher kissed me. I couldn’t believe it. I got up and looked at the door, I turned off the TV and put my sandwich in the fridge and walked up the stairs, and I took a hot shower and went to bed. I wanted tomorrow to come as fast as it could, but I couldn’t go to sleep. My teacher took my first kiss.
The next day, my first three periods were long and time was moving slow. A part of me wanted the time to go slow while another part of me wanted to see him. I loved him, and I didn’t even know his first. When lunch came, I didn’t even eat, I was too nervous to. I went to the class but I didn’t go inside the room, I was too afraid of what he might say or do. I wanted to be with him but I knew I couldn’t, he was an adult. Why did I have to be in high school, why couldn’t I be an adult or at least in college?
I opened the door and there he was sitting at his desk reading a book. I walked up towards his desk, I felt like my stomach was turning inside out. “Hello” I said in a low voice. “Hello, Ms Stone.” he said in a cold voice. He never called me by my last name. “Umm, I was wondering if we can talk, you know about last night.” I said in quiet “I’m sorry, I need to hurry for a very important staff meeting.” He said getting, passed me and walked towards the door. “Please don’t ignore me, please.” I said with tears starting to rolling down my face.
“I’m sorry Amerie, but I know what I did was wrong. You’re a student, I’m your teacher, and I took advantage of you. I made a big mistake.” He said “I don’t think it was, I’m sorry but if you see that as a mistake, your lying.” I said crying. “Amerie, It was a mistake, your to young to understand.” He said walking closer. “I understand, I’m not a kid, so don’t treat me like one and remember you’re the one that kissed me, that wasn’t a mistake. You did it for a certain reason; tell me why you did it. Tell me!” I said walking closer to him to where we were face to face. “I don’t know” he said. “Tell me.” I said. “Amerie you’re a deep, smart, beautiful person, I wish I was younger so it wouldn’t be so complicated but I can’t tell you.” He said. “Fine, don’t tell me but can I tell you this?” I said. “What?” he said. I leaned forward and lightly placed my lips against his, and then tear started rolling down my check again. “I love you.” I said whispered. Then the bell rang, I wiped my tears and headed towards the door and then opened it. “Amerie come after school.” He said but he was looking the other way so I couldn’t tell what expression was on his face.
Once I got home, I had the worst headache in my life; it’s probably from crying too much. I walked up stairs and took my jacket off and boots and threw them in my closet. I dove in my bed and pulled the covers over my head and as I was on my way to a deep sleep but I heard I loud knock at the front door, it couldn’t be my mom she has a key and nobody from school knows were I live. I was annoyed, I just ignored who ever it was and kept sleeping, then a few minutes pass and there was a knock at my door. I got up really fast, was it the same person that was knocking at the front door. I could be an escaped convicted or a crazy killer on the loose. I was literally panicking until it stopped. “Amerie please open the door it’s Mr.Posley, I need to talk to you, and someone left the slide door open in the kitchen. He said. I know this man did not just come in to my house. I quickly open the door and yelled “What the hell is wrong with you, you broke in my house, I should call cops on you…” out of no where he smashed his lips against mine, and wrapped his arm around my waste and pulled me closer to him and the other on my cheek.
Tears started rolling down my cheek and I pushed him, why was he doing this? I hated this. “I’m sorry, I couldn’t control myself and I don’t regret kissing you then or now, I love you. I was just scared of hurting you.” He said then pulled me I for a hug, I gladly went in them, “Do you know how wrong this is, for us to be together.” He said “If this is wrong I don’t want to be right, I need you, I need more than an hour to be with you. When I first saw you I fell for you, the touch of your fingers make me blush, the way you look at me makes my heart skip a beat, and the warmth of your hug makes me tingle with excitement and your kisses tell me how much you love me. Don’t you understand I love you.” I said still in his embrace. “I guess it was meant to be this way.” He said still hugging me. “It was.” I said. He let go of the hug and sat on my bed then he gestured for me to sit down. I did. “Now we got to make some rule.” He said with a serious face. “What? Rules?” I said with a dumbstruck face. “Yes, rules that we need to follow, did you forget that I’m your teacher already, now Rule 1: No intimate gestures at school or in public. Rule 2: No sexual intimacy until you graduates high school.” He said. I started blushing when he said that. “Rule 3: Don’t tell anybody. You got it” he said. I quickly shook my head agreeing, I was kind of mad he didn't think I would know any of this. “And I know you know you know all of this I’m just making sure you know.” He said. Did he read my mind? "You know I'm not a little kid, you can trust me" I said "I know but this relationship illegal, this could mess up mine and your life but it worth it." he said then he look at me. "Your worth it all." he said I grabbed his shirt to pull him closer and kissed him and he kissed me back our tongues intertwined together. Then he stopped "I don't think i can follow rule 2 going at it like this." he said then went back at it."Nick?" I whispered "yes" he said "Have you had sex before?" I said and he stopped and looked at me "Yes." he said. The Talk

"You know I'm not a little kid, you can trust me" I said "I know but this relationship illegal, this could mess up mine and your life but it's worth it." he said then he look at me. "Your worth it all." he said I grabbed his shirt to pull him closer and kissed him and he kissed me back our tongues intertwined together. Then he stopped "I don't think i can follow rule 2 going at it like this." he said then went back at it."Nick?" I whispered "Yes" he said "Have you had sex before?" I said and he stopped and looked at me "Yes." he said. "When was your first time?" i said quietly "When I was in my Junior year." he said "What was it like?" I said "I can't explain it, your just going to have to find out when you get older." He said with a smile on his face. "Why do I have to wait til I get older?" I Said "Because of Rule 2" he said with the same smile on his face. I hate rule 2, it sucks already. "I need to leave." he said between our lips "Why?" I mumbled "Because if I don't Rule 2 will be broken." he said pulling back and standing up. "No don't go." I said jumping up. "I have to before your parents show up and I don't think I'm ready for prison." he said opening the door. "No, please don't." then I felt tears starting to run down my face. "If you go then, I'm going to miss you. I feel like if you leave this is going to fade away like it never happened and I don't want this to never end." I said crying "Thats not going to happen, nothing's going to change between us. Tomorrow will be the official start of us. I promise." he said "You promise?" I said wiping away my tears. "I promise." he said

I walked him to the door and he gave me a light peck on cheek, before i knew it he was gone. I went back up to my room