I Choose You by Kemi Adejumo (classic novels for teens txt) 📗

Chapter Sixteen

Christian's Pov

It's been a week since I last saw Jessica.  I guess she was serious about wanting space. I didn't look for her because I thought she would have realized by now that wanting space between us is impossible,  i was totally wrong.  I have decided that I will find her today and talk sense into her head.  I mean I don't even still know what I did wrong. Today I and the selected girls are going to spend the day at the Orlander Orphanage.  It was built with the Synagogue.  

 

Ten years ago I begged my Dad if I could be involved in the redesign of the synagogue because they wanted to build the orphanage on the same land.  He agreed and I invited Jess.  Ever since,  we would always come to the synagogue because we loved the design.  Soon we got to meet the Orphans and just fell in love with the synagogue.  We would always go to church every Sunday because we enjoyed being in the synagogue.  After we both got into college,  we didn't have time to go there anymore.  Now that College is over,  i thought I would be excited to go to the synagogue but I am not.  What makes me so excited to go there is that I go with my favorite person but.... she's not here . I got ready and made my way out of my  room. 

 

Jessica's Pov

It's been a week since I last saw Christian.  Let's just say I ran away from him. There so many times this week that I could have run into  him but I was careful. I won't lie it's been hard.  I have never had to run from him instead it was the opposite.  I always want  to be with him and be around him but it's not good for me.  The more I see him,  the more I am reminded of  how much he means to me .  It hurts so bad to not be loved by someone you  have loved for so long.   I have loved him for so long that my heart can't take it anymore.  I know I  am sad now but once I move on,  everything will be better for me.  I have to put myself first and I am happy that he will also be with someone like Evelyn.  She will make him really happy.  I feel so guilty that I splitted them before but no matter what,  love always find it's way.  

I am currently on my way to one of my favorite place in the world,  the synagogue. I miss all the kids at the orphanage and I can't wait to see them.  I wish Christian was with me like old times but I guess going on my own is best for me. I got to the Orphaage. I went  to the rception and was told that the kids are in the  playroom. The playroom is so huge that it can contain hundreds of Chhildren.   Immediately i entered the playroom,  all the kids came running to me.  I have not  seen them  in a while and I really miss them.  Crystal, who was once the baby of the Orphanage  came running to me with are tiny legs and jumped into my arms. She is all grown now. 

 

"I miss you so much Jess " she pouted sadly. Aaawn , her cute face stares my heart.  

"Aaawn I missed you too baby" I said while playing with her puffy cheeks.  

"But you forgot about me and didn't come to see me"

"I am so Sorry Baby , you know what,  i brought many gift for all of you today.  Please don't be mad " I begged.  If there is one thing Crystal loves very much,  it is gifts.  No matter what is in it,  as long as you call it a gift , she will love it automatically.  

"Yaay gifts.  Ok I forgive you " she jumped up in joy and all the kids ran to the table where Aunty Nancy, one of the caretakers was arranging all the gifts that I came with. I made sure I wrote all their names on the presents and brought extra  for the kids that might have joined when I was away. 

 

I walked up to Nanny Lucille who used to be Christian's  Nanny but became the head of the Orphanage because of her love for Children. 

"Good afternoon Nanny Lucille " I greeted smiling at her. 

"Oh my darling Child, I have missed you so much Darling . I heard that you have graduated from college. " she said 

"Yes Nanny Lucille "

"I am so proud of you my darling" she said giving me a big hug.  

"Nanny  Lucille, may I ask why the orphanage is dry today?  Normally, there are always people bringing different gifts for the children but It is different today " i asked out of curiosity.      

" Oh you didn't know? " she asked surprised. 

"Know what? "

"Christian and the selected girls are coming to see the children.  That's why we had to close the orphanage today. You know the two of you always come here together so I thought that's the reason you are here ." She explained and to say I am shocked is an understatement.  So he is coming here?  That means I will see him today?  Oh no.  Slow down heart,  please don't race too fast. Remember,  you are moving on. 

"Didn't he tell you darling? " She asked  and my head fell in sadness. 

"Well you see  Nanny Lucille,  Christian and I are not on talking terms" I replied 

"But why?  You guys never fight since I have known you,  so what happened? " she questioned 

"I asked him to give me space. " I answered .

"Why darling? Is it because of your feelings? " she asked and I looked at her surprised. "Oh don't look at me like that, I helped raise the two of you.  I know you like the back of my hands.  I know you have  loved Christian for a long time.  Infact I always thought you two will get married one day?" she said making me sigh. 

 

"Well that's is not happening because he obviously doesn't love me back " I said in a croaked voice trying to hold in my tears. 

"Don't say that Jessica,  he loves but he has not realized it yet"

"Then when will he realize it, I have been waiting years for him to love me and want me like I do him but to no avail.  I have never been attractive to him and he doesn't see me as a woman.  Now he is going to be with someone else and be happy.  That is why I want space Nanny Lucille,  so I can move on " I bawled pouring my heart out. 

"Well have you told him all this? " She asked and I shook my head  "You see Jessica,  where ever Christian is,  he might also be hurting.  Do you think it's fair that you are ignoring him and getting mad at him for something he doesn't know about? Communication is what you need.  Talk to him" she advised. 

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