I Choose You by Kemi Adejumo (classic novels for teens txt) 📗

Chapter Nineteen

Christian's Pov

Immediately the show ended, I walked out of the palace hall but not before telling Mirabelle to follow me.  Nobody noticed that I told her to follow me,  well except Evelyn .  I will explain things to her but  first I need to put Mirabelle in her place.  Immediately we got out of the palace hall,  I dragged her to the garden I don't want to risk the paparazzi taking  pictures of us.  

"Christian stop you are hurt me" she shouted trying to get the attention of the paparazzi but thankfully,  nobody noticed us.   We got  to the garden and she pulled her hands out of my hold. 

 

"What's wrong with you? " she screamed 

"No what's wrong with you  Mirabelle? What was that  you did?  Are you out of your mind?  Are you crazy or something? " I screamed back  at her  while she cowered in fear. 

"I'm sorry Christian,  i just wanted to help you out of the situation.  You were speechless and didn't know what to say,  so I helped you " 

"Helped me?  At whose expense Uhnn? Tell me at whose expense?  You lied and made yourself look like a victim.  You did it all for yourself." I bawled at her as I watched her shake in fear .I have never seen Mirabelle so frightened,  maybe because this is my first time  showing her this part of me.  The part of me that goes crazy when you touch what's mine or you mess with me.  

"Now Mirabelle,  this is the last time you interfere in my business or anything that as to do with me.  Don't talk to me,  don't come near me,  don't even look at me because the day you cross my part again,  i won't hesitate to make your life a living hell.  Have I made myself clear? " I warned her

 

"Ye....yes.. Chris.. Christian " she stammered in fear

"No it's your highness for you" 

"Ye....yes your highness" she corrected 

Before I could dismiss her out of my sight,  i heard a familiar laughter.  I would recognize this laughter anywhere,  even in my sleep.   I looked up and what I saw broke me.  It was Luke trying to tickle Jess while she is running in laughter.  She looks so happy,  so unaffected. 

"Say yes Jess" Luke said while tickling her

"Aaah aaah Never " she laughed and started running while Luke chased after her. 

They had  not noticed my presence yet.  They both ran towards me and when Jess finally noticed me , she stopped on her track.. I stared into her eyes with pain . She is happy...... Without me.  I was living in pain for the past three weeks and she is not affected?  She promised that she would be there for me,  no matter what. I don't know Jess anymore.  This is not my Jess.  

I expected her to say something,  anything . I yearn to hear her voice again. I tried to read her expression but it was blank.  She stared from from Mirabelle to me.  And she did the worst thing  i could ever imagine.  She bowed her head and said "your highness " and then walked past me.   I was more than hurt.... I was broken.  Why is she doing this to me.  

"Christian... " Luke tried to talk to me  but I walked away.  In pain,  in anger,  in sadness.   

 

I entered my room and didn't bother to turn on the light.   I started  thhrashing my room,  breaking stuffs to quench the pain I feel inside.   I don't know why Jess is causing me so much pain. What happened to the friendship between us? I can't believe she is not even affected.  I am here drowning in pain and she is happy?  She would rather be with Luke than me?  

 

I went into my closet and brought  out the bottle of alcohol. I know I promised Evelyn that i wont drink anymore but i need something to drown the  pain I am feeling . I sat on my bed and  started drinking . I heard a knock on my door but I didn't answer because I am not in the mood to talk to anyone. I heard the sound of my door opening. 

 

"Christian" I heard the voice.  It's Evelyn,  again. I heard the sound of her footsteps and then she swiched on the light. 

 

"Turn it off" I said but she just stood there staring at me with sadness in her eyes.  She walked up to me and sat beside me. 

"You promised me that you won't drink anymore " she said. 

"I am sorry " I said with a cracked voice " and I know you are here because of what happened today. So go ahead,  scream at me,  shout  at me,  tell me you hate my presence.  C'mon hit me and say that you give up on me.  You can go ahead and leave me too. "I said with tears running down my face.  

 

"No  no Christian " she sobbed while shaking her head "I am not here for any of that. I am here to show you that I want you.  No matter what happens  Christian I choose you,  you can break my heart into a million pieces, you can push me away  and I will still choose you. You know  why, because my heart chooses you,  it beats for you and you alone" she sobbed while holding my face.

 

  I just stared at her crying face. I have done nothing to deserve Evelyn. I have been so mean and too much of a jerk to her. After everything I have done,  her heart still chooses me?  Does my heart choose her?   

 

I think my heart is too occupied to completely  choose a partner .   For a best friend,  most of my heart is occupied by Jess.I am aware of that,  i just don't know if she is. The love I have for her is more than the love for a parent or lover,  it's that of a best friend.  She's my favorite person, the other part of me. I don't know if best friends can be soul mates because that's what she means to me and more. Maybe if Jess was here to support me,  it would be easier to be with someone. She has been with me through all the phases of my life  but it comes to this and..... she gives up on me. 

 

I don't know what I did to Jess  but I guess God is telling me it's time.  It is time to accept that Jess might not be in my life anymore.  It is time I start taking my decisions without have to think about her first.  She still and would always hold the biggest part of me but it is time I make this decision on my own.  I will choose Evelyn .

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