wake up call - mandy (bts book recommendations .txt) 📗

Wake up call


Well I guess its best to start at the beginning. My name is carly I was born on a cold morning in early December of 1973 where I already had 3 sisters and 2 brothers so the house was very far from quiet I had small memories up till the age of 4 where I was a real daddy’s girl. Like is shadow where ever my dad was I was not to far behind him I adored him he was the best thing ever and then came my 4th birthday where my dad and mom made a great fuss off me the made a cake and brought me such a lovely pink dolls house I remember playing with it all day not realising this was going to be the last day as a family. The next day I woke up ran down the stairs as I normally did every morning to give my dad a hug and kiss for work but this day was different from any other work day as my mom was in the window crying and my dad had a suitcase by his side. I thought it was one of its week away as you see he was a lorry driver so work all hours and some two three nights away at a time but he never took a suit case with him. Daddy why have you got your suitcase are we going on holiday I asked him. He said carly I am so sorry but me and mommy are always rowing so its best if I move out. I cried non stop I held on to his leg screaming please don’t leave me dad please don’t I love you I will be good I promise but no matter how much screaming crying or pleading I did he still left with just a little peck on my cheek. I would not talk to my mom for days as I blamed her I shouted why could you just be nice to dad he would still be here now. My mom just sat there and kept repeating herself im so sorry kids im so sorry. Well it was now September and I it was my first day at school I was nervous but still carried on and went in with no crying as the thought of staying at home all day with my mom who made my dad leave was unbearable. It took me a few weeks to really settle in to school was worried about talking to the other kids as I felt different now I never had a dad. This is when I found my best friend Samantha she was just like me she had more brothers and sisters then me but her dad left her after her little brother was born she felt just how I did she loved her dad just like I loved mine and she also thought it was her moms fault. Every night after school I would run home and ask if dad had been all called but nothing months and months went past nothing then on my 6th birthday there was a knock on the door and I opened it and there was my dad happy birthday sweetheart was that it no I have missed u how have you been nothing he passed me a card and said have a good day and off he went again not even telling any of when he would come and see us again. A few weeks after my birthday my mom said your dad wants to have you all every other weekend we loved the idea off spending every other weekend with are dad all by himself. Most weekends we was let down but there was this one weekend which was different there was a lady with him and he said we was going away for a week with her and her two children. We asked dad who she was and he replied she is a close friend so we spent all day on the beach everyone seemed to be having fun but I knew something was wrong and I knew my dad was lying to me again. So it was time for bed I waited which seemed like ages for the other kids to go to sleep. When I knew they were asleep I crept to the caravan bedroom door where I heard my dad and this Suzy laughing then all off a sudden they kissed my heart started beating and I felt a tear drop down my face from then on I knew I lost my dad for good . I hated the rest of the holiday and could not wait to get home to see my mom and for the first time since my dad left I realised it could not of been all her fault.
As soon as we pulled up outside my moms house I rushed out the car and ran to her gave her the biggest hug and kiss ever and told her im so sorry for blaming you for dad leaving. Well years went past and me and my dad went from be close to worlds apart he never phoned or came and see me and I did the same.


I soon found out why my dad left when I got older he use to have affair after affair and sometimes beat my mom and then he found Suzy while he was with my mom so that was the really reason not saying my mom was golden but she did put up with loads from my dad.


Well when I realised my family were not has close as I thought we where I got on with my life at the age of 18 I was living here there well anywhere still hanging around with my best mate Samantha and Mel we use to stop out at all times of the night get drunk didn’t care how or where we slept as long as we had a drink. We did this every night straight from work hit the outdoor drink until we couldn’t remember any think that hurt us block out things that we didn’t want to think about back then we just thought it was us having a good time but its only now I have realised its because we didn’t know any other way to deal with our pain and being lonely or how coming from a big family that don’t care.

You see as long as I can remember me and Samantha was so a like no matter that we came from a big family they had there own life’s and was not interested in what we was up to no matter how much we got drunk where we was or even if we had a save place to sleep we was on are own and then there was Mel who had a different story to ours altogether her mom and dad was drunks and she got abused by her uncle until she was 14 when she met us and started hanging around with us she was never home to get abused anymore and we all felt safe with each other and that was our life until we was 21. There was no goals or aims to achieve we seemed happy like that for years. Things started to change when Sam got sent to prison for shop lifting they gave her loads of chances but she just kept doing it. Our little self place seemed to be falling apart. I soon met mark who was the same age as me and always seemed to have time for me he was concern about what I was doing and how much I was drinking he use to let me stay at his place so he could keep a eye on me. Mark was like a wake up call I have been waiting for I needed someone or something to break the habit I was in. mark would stay up for hours a night listening to me and cuddling me when I needed it. That is when I knew my life could be better without drink or the crap family I had been giving. Me Mel and mark was sitting watching a film when the door bell rang mark answered it and it was he’s friend Carl Mel faces was a picture from that second she laid eyes on him I know she found her mark. The for of us was happy doing things together holidays nights out we could be ourselves without drink. Me and mark had finally got our own place it wasn’t much just a little two bedroom flat in town but it was ours and it was the first place in years I felt like home. I decided to make a career for myself and start having a aim in life I wanted to be a social worker to give kids my time and let them understand why things happen out of there control and to give them aims to achieve in life and not to go of the rails like I did as not everyone gets to find there mark sometimes its to late. So here I was one morning in my same routine talking to a young girl who thought she was pregnant so I helped her out gave her advice and then took her to a local clinic she did the test and it came back negative she cried so much though relive as she didn’t know the kid that she slept with. That night I got home went straight for a bath I was lying there thinking about that girl when I realised I missed my period I shook with the idea of having a child myself thinking I might end up sending this poor child of the rails like my parents’ did. Mark walked in and shouted into the bathroom would you like a cuppa love. No reply I was still in shock that I might be having his baby. A few minutes passed and in came mark with a cuppa and said what’s up love didn’t you hear me I just busted out crying and stutter the words out of my mouth iiii might be pregnant what’s so wrong with that he laughed. Off he went he came back 20 minutes later with a home pregnant test and sat hugging me while the test was working min seemed like hours and there it was as clear as day a bfp I could not believe my eyes I cried for hours told mark of my fears. He said he such a gentle voice your not your mom or dad you show people your heart and have so much love to give. So I decided with mark by my side I was ready for my own family. Suddenly the phone rang it was Mel I wanted to tell her but I couldn’t didn’t want to jink things she screamed down the phone im having a baby I was so excited for her and Carl I have never seen heard her so happy before . She came round that night for a meal to celebrate the good news I could tell mark was dying to tell there are good news so I let him and we were all happy and I knew my life could not get any better then this all the olds days of my mom and dad letting me down brothers and sisters not around were finally the past . That night I could not sleep thinking about how my life would have been if I didn’t