ALLURING DREAMS - DEE CARTER (polar express read aloud .TXT) 📗

had brains too, and not forgetting the biggest and loudest beating heart id ever heard i loved to lay my head on his chest hearing his heart thrumming me sweet music, music only i could hear, he was perfection with a capital P but every time i looked at him i could easily see something else i was irresistibly attracted to, what was so surprising about him was he had absolutely no flaws which was surprising for a man anyway but then again i was so in love with him i would be biased, wouldn’t i , and to top it off he was mine how the hell did i manage this i was a monster, a creature of the night, a hunter, a hybrid which made me even more deadly you see I’m also a very powerful siren. You could say i am like the well-known black widow i entice, excite, allure, my victims to a state of complete vulnerability then the complete compulsion of wanting me then i strike i kill them and leave no trace. He never stood a chance but i hope deep down it was me he fell in love with and not my charm.
I searched deep in my mind to see if I could ever remember if there was ever a time i used any type of control, I sieved through every memory of us my brain had become my personal diary accounting the moments we shared together, I then thought back to the time he asked me to his, everything from the passion behind those eyes, to the way he held my hand flat pressing against his chest asking if I could feel his heart beating and that it only beats my name, was this a moment i controlled , oh my god no it was all him for that split second i realised he was controlling my emotions, for a split second i looked like I was crying how was that even possible vampires don't cry how could he make me so weak and vulnerable it made me start to think what if he isn’t human after all, like the first day I met him if I wasn't already completely in control of my vampires ways i would never have got passed seeing his beautiful face i would have just devoured his body right there and then leaving not a single drop of blood in his body, because if someone’s blood smells that potent they are just signing a death wish to us vampires and after I would have finished with him i would have to clear out the cafe too it would have been a massacre ......a complete blood bath the vision of the blood made me feel that familiar pang of hunger ahhhhh I seriously need to feed "Snap out of it" a voice in my head said I was glad for the intrusion in my mind there was no way I could ever imagine that because if there was one thing i was certain this was the man i wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I remember the very first night of passion between us the first night I knew something was so different with this man who I now today adore and worship and love till the day I'm wiped out of existence we went out for that meal he spoke of and whilst there he received some very unappreciated attention of another female and I ran out and ran all the way back to the hotel we usually stay at whilst in town I remember him telling me in detail how distraught he was he followed me to the hotel and knocked gently on my door baby please open up we need to talk please don’t leave it like this I don’t know who she was and I don’t even care you know I only have eyes for you I was standing with my back against the door tears streaming down my face never in my life have I ever felt such jealousy and anger I knew I had to leave that restaurant immediately before something happened I would later regret but the thing that made me leave without a sudden thought for his feelings was how the hell would I have explained to this man just who I was “Kristen please open up let me at least try to sort this out “ I wiped my tears away and opened the door I looked to the floor not searching for his eyes with his finger he placed it under my chin and brought it up so I was looking directly at him oh baby you know how I feel about you why did you leave like that you had me worried what happened what was wrong I looked down again feeling ashamed of my behaviour.
He brought my chin up again to look at him before he next spoke “I'm so sorry you find the attention of the other women towards me so difficult to handle but I'm not sorry that it makes you mad healthy competition is good for you baby,” he said in an apologetic tone, did he not realize how dangerous it could be to make me jealous but I loved the audacity and tone in which he said it but yes deep down I was seeing red that girls blood red to be precise I was abit taken back but I smiled apologetically at him.
I then began to laugh and he realized that I wasn’t angry with him. I was more angry at myself for id never experienced this emotion before Walking towards me, he was within a meter of me he wrapped his arms around me and suddenly I had forgotten why I was angry only moments ago his power over me was immense but not too immense that I lost all control on the situation at hand I jumped up into his arms wrapping my legs round his waist and kissed him hard almost feral I felt his heart raise a notch at this action and it was then I knew I was in control again I moved my lips away from his lips and nuzzled against neck and placed a gentle surreal sweet kiss on the sweet spot the vein to the nectar I so long to taste one tiny morsel .i felt his knees buckle underneath him and we are suddenly laying on the hotel floor wrapped up in emotions and tenderness and love .
Sighing into his neck, it became a moan when he ran his hands up the length of my spine. I moved my body closer to him while I continued to kiss his neck and along his clavicle bone. I could still smell the aftershave I loves so much , the richness of it filling my senses and stirring desire in my loins even more than before . I slipped my hands free from his and slid them up over his jacket to his shoulders. My fingers curled around them, holding him and bringing him closer to me.with one quick movement his body was on top of mine his eyes burning into me like burning rods I could feel the intensity of them the need the longing the I want you right her right now notion .
I lie on my back, propped up on my elbows. My breathing heavy; my eyes never opening to look fully at his it was as though I am fully dressed but every part of my body is being undressed slowly and carefully item by item by a twinkle in them emerald green eyes the feeling was insatiable Desire shot through me When the last item was magically stripped I opened my eyes and looked straight into his.
He had so much fire in his eyes that I wanted to look away, unsure of what I was supposed to do to quench it and the flames that were burning inside of me.
He lowered his head at an achingly slow pace and his lips barely brushed against mine, teasing me. I ran my hands up his arms, delighting in the feeling of his strong muscles tensing beneath my fingers and the silkiness of his skin.
I closed my eyes and leaned my head to one side as he kissed along my jaw. I looked at his lips as he pulled away looking into my eyes, I couldn’t stop herself from moaning with anticipation. My hands caught his shoulder blades and I lured him down to me , close enough that I could reach his lips., and I wrapped my lips around his, nibbling on his bottom lip firmly. He groaned under his breath and placed his arms about me. My eyes widened when he rolled onto his back, pulling me on top of him. I swallowed hard when I realized that I was straddling him and for a few seconds I wanted to get off, but then he tugged the hem of my shirt up and ran his cool fingers across my belly. My fear was instantly replaced with arousal and I moaned against his touch but the feeling of disgust was also there I had never as a child appreciated the fullness of my figure or the flowing curves of flesh I was bestowed upon by my mother but I had never found that once a problem to find the attention of the male species but then again I had never loved them or even thought twice about them they were food and also weapons of pleasure and not one of them ever lived another day to tell another soul .alexander knew of the lack of confidence I had about my body and never brought it up in conversation he only ever tried to make me feel as though I was the most beautiful woman on this earth and it worked every time and tonight was no exception but the moment he tried to remove my shirt I flinched and I knew he would say something and he did .
He immediately sat up, his arms snaking around my back and holding me so I didn’t fall while his kisses traced gently across my belly it felt so good but I felt repulsive at the same time he looked up at me and before he could speak I kissed him passionately trying to quiet his words but it was no good he moved his lips away and spoke in a very loving way “if I am going to love you for the rest of my life I'm going to love all of your imperfections too no matter what you try to hide I will love it unconditionally” his eyes were grazing into mine I felt so weak suddenly what was he trying to tell me . I leaned back, allowing him entry to the one part of me I’ve always hid away I was a woman a real woman with warmth and compassion and a whole lot of flesh to love and he did it so well as he began luring his mouth downwards and digging my nails into his shoulders let the night take us into oblivion and beyond and it was the best night of my life we finally fell asleep in each others arms ., holding him against me .I remember that very first night of passion as though it was yesterday we made sweet love for hours on in through the night and on into the day I had never felt so wanted and accepted as I did that night and to say I fell in love with him that night would be a lie because it’s only a year on I realized