In Me - Tiffany Anyel (shoe dog free ebook txt) 📗

and down, “And tonight it will be my face you’ll picture when you’re with Paul…not his.”

And he leans whispering in my ear, “Like how I will be picturing your face… tonight when I’m with Jenn.” And he turns around leaving me hot then cold as he walked away.

The Player in me

I step out of the now cold bubble bath--patting myself dry. I never got to have my quiet picnic on the beach. Sam had gotten really hurt playing volleyball--and Paul had to take her to the hospital.

He seemed very sorry about it—telling me we would definitely have to do a ‘rain check’ on our evening. Of course I understood and I hoped Sam was okay. Telling him to tell her I was thinking about her. I was beyond disappointed--but I guess if I were being honest a part of me was relieved.

After me and Lee’s ‘altercation’ if you can even call it that earlier—I couldn’t help thinking about what he said. And I was silently afraid that he was right. I would be picturing his face--wishing it was him instead of Paul. And that made me feel like the worse person--Paul didn’t deserve that.

I put on my pjs--getting in bed. I turn on the t.v.—for the first time since staying here. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised by that though.

Turning the channels--I see Dirty Dancing flash by. Wait I quickly turn back, Yay! I settle in to watch--the perfect movie to end my less than perfect but still quite unforgettable weekend.

I started to think about the last time I had watched it--the night Lee called asking me to go to the ‘ball’ with him. The night I had cried myself to sleep, and woke ready to face whatever needed facing--to face myself.

I just couldn’t believe how things were between me and Lee right now. Thinking about that night--and how we were compared to now… I never thought it would be us--me and him, who this new found transformation within me, would affect the most.

We have been through so much together and who knew me changing would be the very thing that changed us. I guess it makes sense…but it’s still hard to believe. And what he said to me tonight…what was that?

Did he want me to know that he secretly wanted to be with me too instead of Jenn? Was he trying to tell me something? At the time I was too caught up in the moment to really give it much thought. But now… was

he trying to tell me something??

Lee was a good guy--he has always been. It was one of the things that attracted me to him when we first met. He had a good heart--a sweet heart. And I knew even if he wanted something so bad it drove him crazy. If he knew it would hurt someone or deep down he knew it was wrong—he wouldn’t go through with it.

I knew asking him what I did the other night would put his rigid ‘principles’ in a tough spot but I couldn’t help it--I had too. I silently wished he would just have fucked my brains out--and not given a damn about Jenn or whoever else was in the picture. But I guess I can’t ask that of him…he wouldn’t be ‘my Lee’ if he did.

Hearing a knock while I had begun singing along--and moving my arms quoting the movie (it was at the good part)—I stop, clearing my throat, “Yea?”

I silently wished I would have thought to lock the door. “Yea who is it?” I’m busy go away! The door opens and I see Lee’s dark hair as he turned around shutting the door.

Great--I can’t do this right now. You can’t be here right now. “Lee stop—don’t come any further, what do you want?”

Startled he stopped, and turns his head looking at the t.v, “Dirty Dancing?” He lets out a chuckle, “Leave it to you to be sitting here watching Dirty Dancing while you’re at the beach.” Lee said walking toward me standing beside my bed.

“Can I watch it with you?”’ I let out a sigh groaning. I slide over--he sits on top of the covers watching the t.v., “I haven’t seen this movie…since the last time you made me watch it.” He said smiling at me.

Rolling my eyes I pretend to be annoyed, “Whatever—I haven’t made you watch it in a long time Lee.” “Yea I know—I kind of miss you nagging me.” He finally said glancing my way. I pretend not to notice--my eyes focused on Baby.

“So where’s Jenn?” I finally said not looking at him. “She’s staying with Sam tonight. I think they are still at the hospital—last time I talked to her Sam was about to go in for x-rays.” Lee said shrugging his shoulders.

“Awww—do they know what happened?” “They think she broke her arm--Sam’s pretty sure she did.” “Oh my god—I hope she’s okay.” “She’ll be okay. Sam didn’t even seem all that worried about it—apparently she’s broken her arm before. She seemed more upset that she wouldn’t be able to play volleyball for a while than anything else.” Lee finally said stifling a laugh. “That sounds like Sam.” I said letting out a chuckle.

We had been silently watching for a while--laughing at some parts, quoting along to others. Lee always played Johnny and of course I was Baby.

“Lee you didn’t even say it right.” I finally said pretending to hit him. “What? That is how he says it.” “Whatever it is not—I think I would know.” I said laughing with him.

“Would you like something to drink—or eat? I could grab some things from the fridge?” Lee finally said once he caught his breath. “Okay—yea thanks.” “Kay I’ll be right back.” As soon as he leaves the room I run to the bathroom checking myself in the mirror.

Damn I wish I would have decided to wear something other than pjs tonight. Oh well I guess it’s a good thing that I look less desirable. What I’m I even doing anyway?

I shake my and cut off the light—running back in bed.

He finally comes in with a bowl of strawberries, some bottled water—and something else I couldn’t see. Shutting the door--he places it on my bed. “Oh my!--you brought Nutella? You do know me so well!” I finally gleamed seeing the container.

He lets out a laugh, “Well duh.” I take a strawberry spreading on the chocolaty goodness taking a bite, “Oh my god…I am so in heaven right now.” Lee lets out a laugh—sitting back beside me on the bed.

“Arent you going to try some?” “No—Im not hungry, I got it for you.” “Well aren’t you the gentleman.” I finally said smiling at him—taking another strawberry.

I pretend not to notice Lee glancing at me each time I placed a strawberry to my lips. I silently smile to myself. Well watch this… I take a strawberry licking some of the Nutella off of it before placing it in mouth--it slips falling down my shirt and landing in my lap. “Crap!”

I had chocolaty goodness all over me now—that’s what I get for trying to be sexy. Lee lets out a laugh, “Why I’m I not surprised.” He finally said shaking his head.

I put on a cheeky smile, rolling my eyes at him, “Ha. You’re so funny.” I begin unbuttoning my shirt—pretending I don’t notice Lee surprised expression as he watches me. Good—I bet he wasn’t expecting that.

I get up standing over my bed—my top open showing my pink bra underneath. “Lee can you move so I can change the covers?” “Yea yea okay.” He finally said getting up to help me take off the ruined covers.

“I think some clean ones are in that cabinet over there. Well you get them for me, so I can change?” I finally said pointing to the far cabinet—just opposite of my suitcase.

I bend down looking for another shirt. Finding one I quickly put it on getting back in bed. “Thanks Lee.” “Yea no prob.”

Realizing the change in mood as we both stared at the t.v. I look at him, “How long do you think we can keep this up Lee?” Knowing what I meant he clears his throat his eyes never leaving the t.v. “I don’t know.”

Hearing a phone ring, he reaches in his pocket flipping it open, “Hey how is she?” Knowing who it was I roll my eyes looking back at the t.v.

“It’s fractured—not broken then?...” I couldn’t do this anymore--and I wasn’t giving up without a fight. I get up sitting on Lee’s lap.

Surprised at what I had just done, he looks at me mouthing, “What are you doing?” I ignore him leaning my face over his other ear kissing it with my lips. Feeling him let out a breath he swallows trying to talk with Jenn on the phone, “Yea…I’m listening babe... What now?”

I kiss down his neck finally bringing my face back up to his ear sucking it with my tongue. I hear Jenn scream over the phone, “Lee!” Feeling myself smile I continue playing with his ear breathing heavy as I did so.

Lee slightly leans his head back closing his eyes, “So are you on…your way…back then?” He finally said into the phone trying to sound normal.

I trial kisses along his neck slowly running my hand up his shirt. He looks at me and mouths “Stop.” I smile at him and mouth, “No.”

Rolling his eyes at me—pretending to be upset he talks into the phone, “Babe I have to let you go.” I look at him and shake my head leaning into his ear, “No, keep her on the phone. I want to see how good you are.”

He pulls the phone away, “No Kate, I’m not doing this with her right here in my ear.” Lee finally said looking at me. “Yes you will Lee or I’ll tell her what you are doing right now.” I said whispering in his ear.

Ignoring his angry glare I continue playing with him. He clears his throat putting the phone back to his ear, “So what have you…been up to…today?”

I almost let out a laugh covering my mouth--he was so going to let me have it as soon as this was over. I bite his ear quietly laughing, “You are so mad at me right now aren’t you?”

He doesn’t respond letting out heavy breaths as I began to move my body feeling him underneath me. “Yea…so…what…else--“ He lets out a silent moan