Diary of a Broken Girl - renee rawlings (free ebooks for android .txt) 📗

Dear Diary,

I'm finally in the 8th grade.But there's one problem, im the nobody there no one ever talk's to me or say's hi.I raised my hand to answer a question in math but she never called me.It's like im invisible, and none of my friends talk to me anymore.I just thought they forgot about me but i said hi to my best friend ciara ,but she just walked away from me.My friend jessica she is the head cheerleader but she started pushing me around, and made me hit my head on the locker.I just don't know whats happening and my parents are gone and didn't leave a note for me or even money.I tried calling them but no answer.Could this be a curse or spell that someone put on me?!I'm not sure but if it is i want it to stop i never did anything wrong.I always got straight a's and i never got in trouble.Why did his have to happen to me?Couldn't they have picked someone else to hurt?Earlier at 7 in the afternoon some kids came to my house and threw eggs and water baloons at my window and the front door.It's like everyone hates me for no reason.It's like i scream at the top of my lugs but no one looks at me or even makes me stop screaming.It's like the whole world goes on and im just on mute from the whole world.Well its night time and im going to bed i will write you at school.

Love,
shannon


Dear Diary,

I got up in class and finaly my teacher said something to me she said "sit down or you are going to the office little girl".so i told her to go screw herself and walked away everyone actualy laughed at my joke.I was so happy they are paying attention to me but not enough.When i was walking down the hall my boyfriend walked to me and pushed me to the the locker i told him to let me go but he just dug his finger's into my forearm's.My eyes started watering so i kicked him on accident realy hard,and he fell to the ground.I ran down the hall to find myself running into the principal he grabbed me and started down the hall dragging me.Then I broke loose and ran to the girls bathroom and locked the door and i opened you.But why did it seem like he want to get me and just suspend me now,and ask question's later.Today it has gotten worse the man i love is hurting me,and im getting in trouble for no reason.I yelled out a word i could hardle prnounce i didn,t know how to spell it,it was random to say i said "fribble frabble you mofoing a hole got danget you freakin retard".I beleave it was meant to be a tiny tantram just want to go now leave this little town behind me and find a new home where im notice and where im not beat up.well ima go back to class.


Love,
shannon


Dear Diary,

After last mod I was on my way to my councler so she could help me.Then I saw nick.I can't belive he hurt me like that earlier.He walked up to me he said"why did you kick me eirlier who are you?".Then i noticed that he doesn't remember me so i tried yo revive his memory.I kissed him with one of the most pasionate kisses i've ever done.He held me on the small of my back and lunged his tongue down my throught.He has never done that when he remeber me.Then he took another look at me and he remember.We stared at each other for a short amout of time.them he wispered"im sorry for everything what happened to you this summer i havent seen you for a while".I told him that i had to go to miami for my grandmother's funeraland i stayed there for a while to keep my cousin company.Then he hugged me and he grasped my hand so tight that i could hardly feel it and he walked me home and kissed me once more and walked home.I noticed that my parents weren't home again.I dont think they ever came home,im starting to get worried about them ,if they will ever come home.Im starting to feel lonely being here alone.

love,
shannon

Dear Diary,

I saw my mom's car here ,so i ran to her room but her draw's and her closet were emty.I saw the car keys on her vanity so i grabbed them and ran outside.It was about eight o'clock so i started the car and drove to nick's house.i knew i was to young to drive but i can't take it anymore.I hate being lonely i need to talk to someone.I threw a small rock at his window he didnt answer,then i threw a twig at the window.He came to the window i waved my hands in the air and he saw me.he opened his window and wispered loudly"what are you doing here?".I said also in a loud wisper i can't stand it my parent's arent here they haven't been here in three days and all thier cloth's are gone"i will be down there in a second" so he closed his window he went to the door and came outside.He ran to me and hugged me "can you stay at my house?" I asked.He told me yes so we ran to the car after he got extra cloth's and we drove off.He asked me where i got the car i told him it my mom's.We went into the house he put his cloths in my drawer,and i took a shower while he layed on my bed texting his friend.I put my towl on and walk out of the bathroom to change I told him to turn around then u put my under garment's on and he looked at me as i was fixing my bra strap i still had no short's or a shirt on.He walked up to me and kissed me passionatly on my neck and I lifted my hands and put it around his neck.I kissed him softly he picked me up and layed me on the bed,and kissed down my upper body untill he got to my pant's line.I unbuttond his shirt and gracefuly kissed him i accidently moaned and he laughed while kissing me.but we didn't go any farther so i went to bed with just my bra and underwear and he layed next to me.

love,
shannon

Dear Diary,

I woke up it was about 5 in the morning he was gone where could he be?So i wrapped my blanket around me and walked down stairs and saw him on the couch he was watching the news so i walked to him and sat next to him.He kissed my forehead and held me close.there had been no school today but we still had the habbit of wakeing up early and watch tv.It was still dark outside so we watched a scary movie.He held me everytime i got scared.I always loved him because he was sweet.He was the greatest man you could ever have.I heard the door bell ring so i quickly got my robe on.I opened the door.It was jessica's brother.He had a massive crush on me but he always acted like he hated me.I said hi he siad the same.He asked me if i was busy i told him i wasn't.But he saw nick on the couch so he told me nevermind and he'll see me at school monday.i told him ok i was about to close the door.But jason grabbed me and kiseed me.Nick saw us so he ran and grabbed jason and pushe him away."Get away fom my girl friend" he said loudly.then jason rubbed his head look at me with sad eyes.I help him up and wisper to him an apolagy while nick went up stairs to change.Jason hugged me and said sorry i told him it wasn't his fault then jason walked away i watched him until he dissapeared in the white fog.I felt so bad for letting nick do all that to him.I never had anyone kiss me the way jason had.It was with so much pasion and love.All i can say is WOW!I know i love nick but i never wanted the kiss to stop.

love,
shannon


Dear Diary,


It's sunday again i called my mom and she answered i was so so happy she told me that she had to go to a meeting and dad had to go to his cousin because there was a wedding going on and she told me that she had no time to leave a note or money she is sending me money i was so rlieved that she was ok.She said she won't be home until next month because she has to go on a cruise to a place around the world for a meeting.And dad will probaly partying all week and probaly wont come home.I always hated when he drank he always hurt someones felling's and im scared some one might fight him.My head is fully of useful memories of that kiss yesterday morning i can't just leave it alone so im going to call him so i can talk to him.I just hope that nick doesnt get mad at me for talking to jason because nick always hated him or as i would say is nick has a grudge on jason.I always hated how they faught me and jessica always laughed at them but it became seriouse so we had to kepp them as far away from weach other as possible.Well that was before this summer.These memories were good but i just miss them so bad.Nick had came home from work and said sorry for what he did to jason he just didnt want me to love another man but him i told him that i was going to talk to jason he said it was ok.I dropped him off at his house so he can get his stuff from home while i went to jason's house.Jessica answered the door I asked her if jason was there then i saw him walking down the steps and he glared at me with his beutiful blue eyes and he has his hair like a skater boy.i always loved that about him.Jessica looked at me and looked behind her and saw jason she told him that i was here for him like i said.he told her that he would get the rest and she walked upstairs to her roomjason told me to come in.So i walked in and stood by the steps he asked me why i were here i told him that i had to talk to him about the other morning so he escorted me up the steps.We walked to his room and as we walked pass jessicas room.She looked at me like she hated me so i ran up to jason.He towered over me at least 3 or 4 feet.I looked up at him i asked him why doesn't jessica like me anymore.He said he didn't know because he doesn't go to our school he's now a junior.I sat on his bed and he sat next to me and stared at me.I said sorry for everything he told me it was ok and that it wasnt my fault.I looked at the floor so jason took two fingers and lifted my face.He stares into my eyes until our gaze met.I moved in and kissed him constanly he held the small of my back and kissed me back.Then jessica walked by and saw us I stopped kissing him. then