save me from myself - Keep Fighting (have you read this book TXT) 📗

It all started in 7th grade, there was only two days of school left and she was so excited to get away from that place that she once loved. School was barable when she had her bestfriend by her side, but people change and move on and that year she lost her bestfriend, and it killed her it tore her apart inside. But lets go back to where it all started, in 5th grade they we're both new to their school. That day they had to introduce there selves to the whole class, saying their names and telling something about them selves. The teacher decided to put them next to eachother so they could become friends, and even though neither of them ever thought this they'd become best friends in the next couple of days. The second day of school they talked and the third and fouth and fith day too, they ended up becoming the best of friends. They did everything together and never left each others side, they had other friends too. Yet they didn't care, they just wanted to be with each other and they we're, through out the whole intire 5th grade the stayed friends and no one ever came in between them. They we're together all summer long they never let each others side. Then 6th grade came along and they weren't in the same class anymore, but they didn't care they we're still always together when the could be. They never let anyone come in between their friendship, everyone knew they we're best friends and even when they got into fights, they had to talk to each other because they couldn't be apart. Every day after school they'd go to each others house, they called each others parents mom and dad. They knew each others whole family and their families knew them. No one ever came between them and no matter what happened they promised that they'd be bestfriends forever. But one day one of the girls found out she was going to move, and they cryed and cryed for days and they stayed together for as long as possible and it tore them apart because they didn't want to say goodbye, so they made a bucket list and they did everything. They spent every moment together because they knew they didn't have much time together left. Over the summer the spent every single day togther, they never left each others side. In the end the girl didn't end up moving and they cryed and screamed and they we're so happy that they could still be bestfriends. Then 7th grade came along and they started drifting apart one of them became really popular and fit in with everyone and they tryed to keep there friendship together, but they she let go she made new friends, and she broke all her promises. It killed her but she had to let go, she had to walk awy from her friend but hse knew that one day this would happen, but she missed her bestfriend. She cryed and cryed for days she skipped school and hung out with older people the school year wen't on and on and it got worse and worse, because no matter who she talked to and who she became friends with she couldn't forget about her bestfriend. It killed her every day and every night, then summer finally came and she could escape everything, but then she started hanging out with a older girl trying to replace her bestfriend. They drank and smoked and had sex with anyone they could just to forget all their promblems, one day she couldn't stop thinking about all their memories and she cut herselg. She tryed to take the pain away and she cut and cut and cut and it bkeed and bleed and bleed. She didn't care though she just wanted the pain to go away. While she was laying awake crying hurt, lost and depressed. Her "bestfriend" was surronded buy people she was happy with she never thought about her "bestfriend" she was happy. Then the girl meant this guy and he made her happy, and she loved him and he knew everyhting about her, he knew she cut herself and that she was hurt. They we're together all the time, they loved eachother. They spent the night together and slept together and the girl was in love him, no matter what he did or said to her she'd always come back to him. 

They stayed together for almost three years, she was so emotionally attached to him that she never wanted to let go. He was tall with green eyes and perfect lips, their hands fit together so perfectly and his smile and laugh and voice made her fall even harder. They talked about having kids and getting married and being together forvever, and she really thought that they would be. Then school started again and by now she was in 8th grade and school got better she had lots of new friends and she wasn't so sad anymore. But her "bestfriend" was in so many classes with her and she had to see her everyday and it killed her inside, she wanted to talk to her and go back to the way things we're but she knew they wouldn't. So again she cut herself over and over again and then she would cry and cry and she'd feel so hopeless. and lost but he'd come and make her feel all better. He'd talk to her and hold her and telll her that everything would be okay. Even though in the end it wouldn't be becasue, he was keeping a secret from her. He had ro leave and go far far away and he wouldn't be coming back for a long time. As months past the girl became friends with all her "bestfriends" friends, trying to get closer to her and maybe just maybe get her back. She started giving up there was only one month of school left, but then this boy started texting her "bestfriend". It was one of her friends and he would always talk about her and ask why they stopped being friends and the she would just say she didn't know. Then a few days later at school she saw her "bestfriend" and sher smiled and she smiled back and then in one of the classes they had together, her "bestfriend" talked to her. She was so happy and everything was okay she was so happy and everything seemed right and her bestfriend and her we're bestfriends again. That day after school they hungout it was raining outside and her tummy was turning and she was so scared, because something felt so wrong. They we're together all night that day and they talked and talked and cryed and got everything out. She showed her bestfriends the cuts upon her wrist and they cryed and cryed somemore, because the truth was they both missed each other. That night she wen't back home with a smile on her face.

When she finally arrived home he was waiting outside for her, he wasn;t smiling or happy to see her. Even thought the sky was dark the moonlight shown on his face showed that he was crying. She asked him what was wrong and she ran to his arms, he just pushed her away and said they needed to talk. So they sat there and he told her that he was moving far far away and he wouldn't see her for a long time, and she dropped to her knees in tears and she screamed and cryed. He sat there beside her holding her in his arms and cryed with her, they spent that night together and she knew the next day he'd be packing to leave her, and even with him being 5,252 miles away they we're going to try to make it work. So for about 3 months they had a long distance relationship and they would talk and skype every single night, he had a flight ready to come back and see her and they we're both so excited to be together again. But as days past he didn't want to try anymore, so he gave up and he moved on and he never told ther girl. Weeks later with no calls from him she began to worry and she cryed and cryed and cut and cut over again, that night he told her that it was over and that he wanted too see other people. She cryed and cryed and threw everything and screamed and she wanted to end all the pain she drank and drank and cut some more and wanted to die. She was alone, and hurt, and scared and she hated it. He ripped her heart out and stomped on it, he broke all his promises. She didnt talk to anyone, she didnt eat or sleep or drink or move for days, she couldn't cry or talk or breath. She just wanted to die right there, then she heard a knock at the door and it was her bestfriend, when she saw her face she dropped to her knees and cryed her eyes out. Her bestfriend he;d her and told her everything was going to be okay, the girl screamed and cryed and said "no it wont because in the end i lose everyone who matters to me" her bestfriend said you wont lose me. She looked up with tear filled eyes and said i've already lost you once, i could lose you again at any second. Her bestfriend stayed with her that night, she tryed to make her okay but she still wanted to die she was still crying.