What's hidden within me - Ameera Butt (best ereader for epub txt) 📗

“You’re late.” Faith states out as I enter her office walking in very calmly and actually seeming happier than before.
“By a minute or two.” I say trying to seem apologetic but failing.
“Every minute counts in life Lilly.”
“Sure does Faith!” I agree and sit on the chair opposite her.
“I booked you today for two hours. Hope that’s ok I just want you to finish your story as quick as possible honestly.”
“Wow, two hours really? Why do you seem so desperate to know the story Faith?”
“Well...” she stops and thinks of what to say as she continues speaking “Well, I just want to hear it all out and start working on how I can help you.” I look up at her and smile.

We’ve never seen each other, yet we are always there for another. You seem like this imaginary friend living every moment with me even though you’re so far. I imagine ourselves being good friends forever even if we die. Yes, that last bit was figurative but it’s worth trying I won’t lie. The moment we met I didn't know how important you would mean to me, it’s a shame I can’t seem to express the feel. I may be a total weirdo but you don’t let me be one alone. I feel the love for you more and more knowing somewhere inside you without me your heart would be a little sore. Our friendship is pretty rare that’s for sure and our opinions for each other are so pure. Ask me my true opinion about you, I’ll look into your eyes and say there’s no specific words that can describe you. I know this is all true, I hope you think so too!

“Mass, Max and Kat. Kat is my sister and the two boys are my neighbours. Unfortunately Mass is my best friend as well.” I explained to Lionel, now going back into my story.
“Unfortunately?” Mass asked giving out his evil eyes to me.
“I was joking, honestly your sense of humour is fading away the older you get Mass!” I spoke out laughing as everyone else started laughing with me. He looked away whilst grabbing onto his suitcase and started walking off. Kat and Max following behind him as Lionel and me stay back waiting for our baggage's to come.

“So Mass? Just best friend?” Lionel asked curiously but trying to make it sound like a little tease.
“Mass? Yes, pretty much. Although first time I met him, I thought he had this ridiculous crush on me but then when we became best friends that doubt went in time thankfully.” I responded with a silly laugh.
“Is there any chance he does like you?” Lionel asked in such seriousness.
I stopped searching for our bags and looked up at him “you think so?” I whispered out to him.
“I don't know. I don’t know anything really. I’m just assuming stuff here. Anyways we better get our bags and catch up with them now!” He broke the tension and we rushed to get our bags.
“You never liked anyone?” I questioned seeming very interested. He looked at me and gave a small yet very cute chuckle and then looked down putting his phone in his pocket. He didn’t say anything, I assumed he didn't want to discuss something like this with me. Perhaps we were still a sort of strangers to one another since we only met a few hours ago. We started walking out of the airport as I was wondering in my own thoughts.

“I want to go to the toilets!” Kat demanded as she stopped quickly and Max banged into her.
“Really now? Can't you wait until we get to the hotel?” Max questioned seeming so desperate to get to our accommodation.
“No! I shall not wait! In fact hold onto my suitcase I'll be two minutes!” She passes her baggage to Max and rushed off whilst then Mass and Max go to get a drink from the closes shop within the airport. Lionel and me stood there in patience waiting for everyone to come back.

It kind of felt a little awkward since we weren't saying much. We actually hardly spoke. I had no idea what was in my mind since I'm always just really clueless. Lionel took a deep breath as he turned to look at me and eventually took words out of his mouth. “I don’t go around looking for much or many. I walk in and out, day and night, seasons to season in search of one specific. Eyes that lighten in every darkness. Smile that rises every heartbeat. Voice that calls out so pure. Hair that dances through the cold breeze. Skin that lays thin and beautifully. But I'm afraid this is just in every dream as now I live in reality, where there's nowhere to search. Nowhere at all.” I looked up at him as I starred right into his light brown shinny eyes. His words, they were so touching. So pure, so amazing. The way he spoke out it was kind of freaky because he didn't seem like himself but they were definitely his words. They were really his thoughts. He amazed me in the way he spoke those words out of his mouth standing right next to me. Whilst he spoke that small awkwardness that was there had vanished. Gone forever it seemed like. I could feel myself seeming so shocked and my face showing my feelings as my eyes wouldn't stop looking up to him and were stuck at him. I wanted to reply back saying something to him but I couldn’t seem to say anything. I was too involved in the moment. I felt like I was...

“In love?” Faith breaks out asking as she takes me out of my story and breaks me from the thought.
“Faith! No, honestly how could you think of such a thing! It was nothing. It just felt like I could really get use to him.” I reply back at first seeming in a horror then relaxing myself down.
“Oh? Really Lilly?”
“Yes Faith, beside he didn't really seem my type. Well he didn't back then.”
“So that means he is your type now? That means you are together now?”
“Am I going to finish the story or not?”
“Oh yes, please continue.” She stops herself from talking and lets me continue my story.

The other three were back from where they had gone and we left the airport to go to our hotel. We got a cab and waited in the busy traffic as it took use about one hour to get to where we were going to stay. It was pretty ridiculous, as the journey from the airport to the hotel was maximum twenty-five to thirty minutes. I sat there with everyone just being so impatient cursing the traffic.

I was a really impatient person; in fact I still am but back then in that young life I was way more impatient. I can see within the years how much transformation has occurred within me. I see the difference and I see me being a whole new person but then again not everything can be changed in a person. I still have some things in me. I still have the craziness I had back then. I guess not everyone get to see that part.

“This is just typically ridiculous!” I blabbed out sounding so annoyed and frustrated.
“Oh calm down Lilly. Stop being such a pain.” Mass demands making me even more annoyed.
“I’m hungry!” Max stated out.
“Aren’t you always hungry!” Kat laughed out saying as Max looked away to the other side.
“Shut up everyone. I’m exhausted and tired and bored and hungry and...” I broke out speaking.
“And you seem very annoying!” Lionel interrupted me and took over what I was saying as I quietened down and look at him.
“You are pretty annoying right now Lilly.” Mass agreed as well as Kat and Max nodding their heads. I sat there in shock thinking how rude Lionel sounded in that moment. He didn't seem like one to sound so rude or say something like that to anyone. Or was someone who would be rude? I was so puzzled.

I finally got out of the confusion and with anger in my voice I replied back to him. “Annoying? I am not annoying!” And then I went into a small thought and continued talking. “You’re annoying!” Everyone looked up at me and started laughing including Lionel himself. I again sat there in confusion thinking why they were laughing. Have they gone insane or was it me? Even the cab driver had eventually started laughing.
“Lilly, listen to yourself. I am not the one complaining and moaning all the time and complain about some silly traffic.” Lionel backfired saying as I gave him such a horrendous look.
“Yeah well... No one wants you here! If you have a problem you can go and get another cab!” I hit back now making it seem like this was some sort of war. The problem with me back then was I could get annoyed and angry very easily. It didn't take much to annoy me or get my anger out. Everyone knew how bad my temper was. I feel now I still have a bad temper but it’s more controlled than before. At least now I don't go around breaking stuff. Thankfully.
“Lets vote. Who over here has a problem with me being in the same cab with all of you?” I raised my hand up in such a hurry hoping everyone else would raise his or her too. Well I know this would sound just stupid but back then no one raised their hands! Seriously, how can you stay in a cab with such an annoying person! I think my thoughts for Lionel was actually wrong. He is this rude, annoying and stupid person. I had now really started to dislike him. Even though he came out so annoying somewhere inside me I still was glad that he was there. That he was in the cab with us. Being with my three idiots and me. Inside somewhere I was happy that he was there. But this doesn't change the fact that he was so annoying!
“Do you know what! I’m just not going to talk to anyone of you from now!” I spoke out sounding so firm and confident with what I said.

They didn’t reply to what I said and we continued waiting to get to our hotel as the traffic was now reducing and he heat out there was now lowering down. We all finally reached and got out of the cab taking out our suitcases with us and walking into the hotel. Being so stubborn and sticking what I had said earlier I didn't talk to any of them and went first to the hotel reception where a young man sat waiting to greet me. He had a black and blue uniform on with a random shade of colours on his tie. He has an amazing little cute smile on his face. He seemed like on of those charming men. I got my room keys from him and walked off giving him a quick wink and half a smile not worrying about the others behind me.

“Wow, you were a stubborn one.” Faith takes me out of my thoughts and stories, whilst establishing my character.
“That hasn’t changed.” I reply back saying, though it is more of a mumble.
“And Lionel, you started to dislike him?”
“Did you not hear what I said? He sounded so rude!”
“So you liked him then disliked him? Is it a love hate friendship?”
“The thing is