when the sky falls - kerry (life changing books txt) 📗

to talk I’ll listen.” He sinks farther down to my level and holds me tight. “Josh, I’m here.”

I glance up at him. “They’re always here, and then they leave.”

“But I’m not them, I wouldn’t leave. I would stay.”

I nodded my head.

I felt my phone vibrating; I reached into my pocket the caller ID read: Paige.

I looked at Leo. “This is why I’m with Paige, she’s too obsessive…I know she would never leave.” I muttered before answering my phone

“Hello, Paige.”

I heard her voice on the other end. “I thought you were coming over.”

I sniffled. “I am babe, don’t worry I just had some shit to take care of.”

I pictured her nodding her head. “Well is everything ok with you, Josh? You seem out of character.”

“I’m fine.” I faked a smile even though she couldn’t see, I hoped I could convince Leo as well that I was alright and I would get over it.

“Ok bye, Josh.”

“Bye.”

I hung up the phone and stuck it back in my pocket. “I have to go.”

“Josh…please, talk to me.”

I shook my head. “No.” I broke free from his embrace. “I don’t need somebody I haven’t had any one for years and I am just fine. Stop worrying about me, Leo.”

“Josh, Wait!” he screamed as I made my way out of the woods.

I started running to get away from him as I heard his voice echoing in my head. “Don’t be afraid to cry.”

I’m not afraid to cry! I screamed to myself. “I will not cry.” I mimicked myself.

I started running faster when I seen Paige’s front yard and the tree that we always sat under. I walked up to her front path and knocked on the door roughly twice.

I heard people shuffling before Paige appeared behind the open door. “Josh!” she screamed and hooked onto my shirt.

I hugged her back. “Hey babe.”

….Leo’s P.O.V….

“Josh, wait!” I screamed waving my arms in the air as he took off running out of the woods. I sunk to the ground holding myself. All I was trying to do was get him to express him feelings, to show that he’s not as much as a hard ass as he acts. He has a soul and he has a heart, and he cares. And I know that. I do know that. I just have to get him to show me that side.

I pull myself off the ground and slowly exit the woods. I sigh. I don’t think he would ever share who he really is with me. He would prefer to have everyone that he knows think that he’s a hard ass and he has no emotions and he’ll hurt anyone except for his precious Paige and feel no guilt at all, but that’s not the real Josh Smith.

I walk up to my new house and hesitate before I open the door. I know I live here now, but it feels so wrong to not knock. But still I reach my hand out and grip the doorknob. “What am I supposed to do?”

I throw my head back on my bed roughly. “My step brother hates me…and I think I may be attracted to him. “ I whisper to myself before I start tearing out my hair and squeezing my head.
“He hates me.”

Is what keeps repeating it’s self in my head.

why the hell would i tell you

“No I was just sitting there and he like jumped me. I jumped up and I was like what is this? Before that he woke me up and was just lagitally straddling me.”

“Eww foreal?”

“Yes.” I glanced up at Paige and gave her a small smile.
OK, so maybe I lied about the first part, but I can’t let her think that. What am I supposed to say, I was crying because I’m not good enough and my father left me when I was 5, Leo was just holding me while I acted like a little girl and bawled my eyes out. I’m not going to tell her I was crying. She loves the bad boy, with no heart.

“Josh?” I leaned over towards her and pecked her on the lips.

“Yes, babe?”

She lowered her head. “Do you think…he’s homo for you?”

I pretended to gag. “He’s my step brother, that’s close enough. Not to mention…eww my step brother better not be homo. That’s the last thing I need. I don’t need to put up with Leo drooling over me every morning and night. For god’s sake, his room is right across from mine.”

She giggled. “I know. Not to mention your mine.”

I forced a smile. “You got that right baby.” I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her onto her bed. Making out with her forcefully. I felt her slip her warm hands up my shirt and feel around my abs running her hands up and down as my tongue fought the battle with hers. Mine taking dominance.

“What the hell is this Paige?” I threw myself off of her as her brother, Jayden walked in.

“We were…uh just talking.” She stuttered.

I smirked, “is that what talking is? If that’s the case then I want to talk more with you.” I threw myself at her and tackled her on the bed as she giggled.

“Jooo-shhh. Stop itt!” she squealed as she pushed my body off of her with a wink. Inclining her head towards Jayden. “Sorry Jayden…” she muttered.

“Whatever Paige.” Jayden said as he disappeared out the door in frustration.

I smirked at her. “Now that Jayden’s gone…”

I left off waiting for her to finish it. “We can continue to talk if you’d like.”

I reached into my pocket and grabbed my phone. “I really want too, but I have to be going home now.” I leaned over her, our tongues battling each other once again as I pulled away. “Bye.”

She started to pout as I opened the door and blew her a kiss. I started walking towards my house in a jog. A couple minutes later, the rain started to pour down soaking my outfit. I slowed down to a walk as soon as I heard the thunder and the lighting.

I loved storms. There was no better time to clear your head then when you’re being pelted with a million tiny raindrops and feeling nothing.

I walked up to my door and kicked it open not bothering to stop it from smashing into the wall.

“Where have you been?” my mother ambushes me at the door.

“I told you. I was going to Paige’s.” I explained emotionless.

“I know you did but you never said that you weren’t planning on coming home for dinner, Keith wanted to go out with all of us, as a family.”

I snorted and rolled my eyes. “You’re my only family. You can’t just throw some people in a house that I’ve lived in since I was born and expect me to call them my family. “

“Josh, I know that your father leaving has messed you up but I expect you to show respect, not just to myself, but to Keith and Leo. Think about what Leo had to leave behind to come here, he made sacrifices.”

I folded my arms and stared daggers through her. “You act like I asked for him…”

Leo’s P.O.V

What the hell am I? The puppy that you didn’t want for Christmas, would you have rathered a kitten then?

I stand there dumbstruck as I hear Josh and his mother’s conversation downstairs and the living room. I hear her raising her voice as she gets more and more angered. “You’re my only family. You can’t just throw some people in a house that I’ve lived in since I was born and expect me to call them my family.”

Was my father and I being here really bothering Josh that much? I vaguely hear his mother’s response about me, but what has me fallen silent is how he responds to her comment. “You act like I asked for him.”

Is it just me that he doesn’t like being here? Maybe he doesn’t mind having my father here, but he just doesn’t want me to be here?

I hear footsteps storming towards the stairs. I turn around and dart up the stairs trying
to avoid all the noisy ones.

“Leo, I know you’re up there. For being so skinny you make an awful loud amount of noise.”

I gulped, and swallowed my pride stepping in front of the boy who never cries. I had tears in my eyes and my throat began to get tighter making it harder to breath. My heart began racing as I was facing him. “Why…?” I asked

“What do you mean why?”

“You know what I mean, Josh.”

He shook his head. “No I obviously don’t.”

I took a deep breath and exhaled. “Why do you hate me, why is my presence here making you so angry?”

He shifted on to his left foot. “Do you really want to know?”

I didn’t trust my voice so I bit my tongue and nodded my head.

He stepped on the same step as me with no emotion is his eyes. Slowly leaning closer to my ear. He brushed his lips up against my ear and I heard him getting ready to speak. He took his arms and held my back before speaking. “It’s none of your god damn business.”

He turned on his heels and angrily walked into his room. I stood there in the middle of the hall, trying to think what just happened. The only thing that I could register was that, I wasn’t welcomed there. Josh had made that clear, this was his home…a home is for family and I would clearly never be a part of his.

I sunk down into the floor in the hall and started gasping for air. Why was I so hated?

I walked into the hall and stood in front of my door before turning and facing Josh’s door. I put my ear up to it and heard his music blasting.

I'm so done with it, I won't go back again and
I'm okay with this, that I'll be in my own
Until the day I die, which shouldn't be that long
So I'll just do what I do and make the most of it

I won't fall down again
My heart's now dead and gone
And I'm still breathing
I made it out alive

Oh fuck this is fun I just can't believe I didn't find this before
To just indulge even if it kills me
Who gives a