when the sky falls - kerry (life changing books txt) 📗

fuck if we die

Another bottle down
You should really try it sometime
Cause it feels so good

Without a care if a heart gets broken
You'll all learn in the end that there's a better way
Baby move in closer, you couldn't hurt me if you tried

I won't fall down again
My heart's now dead and gone
And I'm still

I heard the song stop and then it went completely silent.

“hello.” He finally spoke.

I couldn’t hear the other end of the conversation but I could hear his.

“Who?”

“oh ya.”

“No.”

He laughed slightly.

“Hell no babe.”

“never.” I could almost picture his eyes lighting up and that cute smile that he gets when he talks to her.

“Ya ok bye babe.”

I heard shuffling before the song finished.

breathing
I made it out alive

Take a seat my dear
Make yourself comfortable this could take a while
Crack another, dear
I can see now and I wouldn't change a thing
Life should burn with such a fucking flame
If not you've only got yourself to blame

I took a deep breath before I bite my lip and pounded my fist on his door.

jackass, says what?

“Who is it?”

“….it’s it’s me Leo.”

I smiled slightly before regaining my ass whole attitude. “What do you want, Leo??” I asked in a hard voice

“I…just want to talk to you….” I stuttered.

I sighed and walked forwards pulling my door open with a hard stare on my face. “What? I thought we got this over with 5 minutes ago.” He turned around and looked at the door. I felt my eyes get moist, as I stared at the ground. I wiped it away just in time for Leo to turn back towards me I glanced up hiding my emotions. I felt like such a pansy. I never cry. What the hell is wrong with me? Why am I crying over my step brother? Since when do I care who gets hurt as long as it’s not Paige?

“But I just… I don’t understand why.”

“Just go, Leo.”

“No, Josh. Explain to me. Why??”

I quickly bit my tongue. “You really want to know this time? Cause I know that you’re never going to leave me alone until I tell you, is that right?”
He nods his head.

“Whatever.”

“Well?”

“I don’t like you. You’re annoying, immature and completely obnoxious. You act like you’re the perfect person; you want to cry why don’t you cry to me? News flash, Leo. I don’t want to fucking cry! You act like I need you, I don’t need you. I don’t need anyone new in my life. You come off as the most amazing person...” I mentally slapped myself what the hell….I just called him the most amazing person. I quickly regained composure. “But you aren’t all you are, is a 16 year old that’s trying to win sweetie of the year. Isn’t’ that right? But you can’t because you aren’t fucking perfect Leo. It was just fine when it was my mother and I. I never asked for her to go and get married and then have his little perfect son move into my house and embrace my private space. I would have gotten along just fine without you.”

I watched as he stands there with tears in his eyes. I’ve never once in my life hated myself so much. Why was I such a screw up?

I rolled my eyes and glanced at him just wishing I could reach out and hold him, apologize for all the tears I just cause him with every word I just spoke…I’m sorry I mouthed.
He backed up and was leaving my room, “I’m sorry…I’ll leave you alone. I didn’t mean to come here uninvited….I just...” he took off running.

I fell back on my bed. “Why…why couldn’t I just face the truth??” I wasn’t a hard ass to people that I cared about…something about Leo just had me going weak at the knee’s and sweet in the heart..

“Way too show that you care about him, josh.” I whispered to myself
I froze. “Wait…did I just say that I care about him?”

Leo’s P.O.V

I was right. I was exactly correct. Josh hates me. He hates everything about me, he hates how I live here, he hates how my father and I moved in, uninvited I guess…he just hates everything. He really is that cold ass whole that everyone in the school told me that he was. I thought everyone was just blowing smoke, but after living with him for 3 days, I believe them.

“Well” I asked him anguish rising inside of me, was he ever going to be honest with me?

“I don’t like you. You’re annoying, immature and completely obnoxious. You act like you’re the perfect person; you want to cry why don’t you cry to me? News flash, Leo. I don’t want to fucking cry! You act like I need you, I don’t need you. I don’t need anyone new in my life. You come off as the most amazing person...” he paused before continuing. “But you aren’t all you are, is a 16 year old that’s trying to win sweetie of the year. Isn’t’ that right? But you can’t because you aren’t fucking perfect Leo. It was just fine when it was my mother and I. I never asked for her to go and get married and then have his little perfect son move into my house and embrace my private space. I would have gotten along just fine without you.” I wiped my tears again frustration floating over.
Was I really that bad? Was I as obnoxious as he says? Sure I get hyper at times…and I do get screamy…and odd…maybe I really was that bad. “Damn it!” I screamed as I punch my wall.

“Why the hell does this happen to me!?” I fell back on my bed exhausted from today. We had school tomorrow...boy was I looking forwards to that. I could tell everyone they were right on the money about Josh.

“Leo! Get up!”

“Ummph!” I screamed as I was wacked on the head with a pillow.

“What the hell was that for?” I asked anger fueling me.

“Well we have school. You were sleeping and my mother says that I have to drive you to school. And I’m not allowed to be late again, or ima get expelled…so get the fuck up!” he finished smacking me off the bed with the pillow again. laughing devilously.

I glanced up and noticed his outfit. He looked threatingly cute with his baby blue skinny jeans, chains hanging from his belt, and that black veil bride’s t shirt, with his hair the perfect amount of messy ness and the cute smile he has on his face.

“I’m up!”

“Good. You have 10 minutes. “He screamed behind him as he exited my room.

Trapped in a car with Josh for half an hour, for me heaven, for him hell.

It was just a dream

I glanced over at Leo as he played with his fingers and stared at the floor. He was adorable.

I shook my head and smashed my feet down on the gas pedal, going way past the speed limit.

I couldn’t control myself being next to him anymore. I just needed to get away from him and if that means going way beyond the speed limit, I will do that.

I watched as he clenched his fists and dug his nails into seat.

I concentrated on the road as my foot slipped more and more on to the gas pedal until I finally took a deep breath and began to release it. I pulled into the school parking lot unlocked the door and watched as he climbed out. He climbed out of the car and stood there. I locked the car and threw the keys over my shoulder into my backpack. Walking into the school.

“Go find someone to show you everything.” I just couldn’t be around him right now. I turned my back towards him and started walking away.

“Josh!” I heard Paige yell. I turn around towards her and force a smile on my face

“Hey babe.” I say as I wrap my arm around her waist and we start walking to class together.

We don’t speak. Things just feel different than before. We get to her class and I push her up against the door giving her a long forceful kiss before I leave her with a peck on the lips and a smile on her face.

I get to my class and sit there, after a while I lay my head on my desk and close my eyes relaxing them.

“Josh?” I glance up

“What?”

“Where you sleeping?”

My vision becomes clearer and I see Mr. Ecendice standing there with a disgruntled expression on his face.

I shake my head. “Psh no. I was just staring at this lovely color desk. Of course I was sleeping.”

He rolls his eyes. “Well since you were sleeping why don’t you show the new kid, Leo around.”

In my mind I get happy but I keep up my jack ass cover. I shook my head no. “look, Mr. Ecendice with all due respect…” I snort. “Fuck it with no respect, I live with the new kid and I see enough of him at home.”

“Well, with all due respect, Josh...I just told you too.”

I roll my eyes. “And I just said no.” I walked out of his room throwing my middle finger up in the air as I exited the school building. “Call me when you’re ready to come home.” I yelled as I passed Leo in the hall, doubting he wanted to skip school.

He ran up beside me. “What are you leaving?”

“Yaa.”

“I’ll come.” He says as he follows behind me.

“ok.” I mutter as I kick open the front doors to the school.

We get to my car and I