Return to First Love - Leandra A. (dark academia books to read TXT) 📗

her reaction whenever I speak to her or invite her to go with me. I don't know how to explain this but she makes me feel at ease each time I am with her and whenever I see her honest affection towards me.

 

(Raining heavily)

 

Just my luck! (Looking outside the window)I don't have my umbrella with me and I don't think that the rain will stop anytime soon, how will I go back? Sigh... I guess I'll just run and let myself get wet.

 

(Heard footsteps) Zack! (Catching her breath) good thing you haven't left...here I got you an umbrella! I was already home when the rain suddenly pours down and I remembered that you are still on the library so I went back.

 

I'll go home now take care! (Hurriedly run outside)

 

Wait Anne! What the...

 

She hurriedly went back after giving me her umbrella, I called out to her because I noticed that she only brought one umbrella so what about her? How would she go home? The next day I heard that she was absent and down with flu. She was really an idiot; that's what I thought of her.

 

I am always surrounded by fake people who just want to be on the good side with me because of my family background. Even my own mother who I love most suddenly disappeared on me and left me with my father who always see in me my mother who left him for another man. I become numb with these people to the point I almost give up trusting and believing on someone. Her appearance is something that I didn't expect would turn my world upside down. I can't believe myself being used in being with her that sometimes I don't know if it was just due to my drunkenness I would vent out my frustration about my mother who left me. I thought that she will give me sugar coat words but instead she cried and brawl like a child on me.

 

Hey why are you the one who is crying? It's not like I want you to feel pity on me!

 

No... It’s not like that I... I'm so happy that you are telling me this things that I can't help but to cry...I am sorry if I can't say any comforting words to you but I can't think of any word I can say to ease your pain, that is why all I can do is to cry for you since you won't cry in front of me. (Start crying again)

 

Her honesty did save me at that time. I can't believe it at first but I can feel something inside of me is changing. Before it was her who keeps on looking at me but now like a stalker I would always look for her and find myself staring at her. Her smile, voice and her eyes that look back at me I find it all beautiful. It didn't surprise me to finally realize that me as well, slowly but surely I too have fell in love with her...

 

(Chatting noise)

 

Anne! (Hold her hand tightly)

 

Zack? What is it? Why are you calling out for me? (Look so confused)

 

(Stared at her intensely) I want you to come to my place now!

Puzzle Piece Found...

Not knowing where does he lives, I have no other choice but to bring him back home. Although I'm reluctant at first It's not like I have a choice right? Memories of my past self-came back as if it was just yesterday, his smile, voice, his eyes looking at me and the happiness I felt when he let me see the weak side of him that he won’t show in front of others, it’s all coming back to me.

 

Time has passed us by but why am still stuck at my past with him ten years ago. Looking at him right now it only makes me realized how unfruitful for me to continue on being affected by him. I guess it’s really time for me to move forward and stopped being stuck on my memories of him.

 

Just let me have this one last kiss…

 

What's taking you so long?

 

No way... (surprised upon seeing him awaked)

 

If you are going to kiss me, do it now! I still have so many things that I want to ask you… ANNE.

 

Without a second thought my body moves on its own finding a way to escape. I know for sure that this time if I let him again into my life, only to be hurt and be disappointed with myself again, I won’t be able to cope with the pain for the second time. But Zack was able to see through me, he immediately reached for my hands not letting me escape from him.

 

As I thought you are really Anne, I don’t want to believe it at first but seeing how you reacted I can’t be mistaken. Did you know how long I’ve been searching for you? You just suddenly disappear on me after what happened to us and for worst like a crazy man I’ve been searching for a woman by the name of Anne li Kim who never existed! You!…why do you always...

 

I thought that he was going to hit me but instead he hugged me so tight, I can barely breathe. I tried to escape from his arms and then he, like a desperate man, kissed me.

 

Wait… Zack… Please stop doing this! Being hurt once is enough..please...just help me get over you (Start crying)

 

I can’t do that…Anne what made you think that? Don't cry haven't I said before that I hate seeing you cry...tell me what happened why did you leave?

 

Asking me why…who would want to hear from the person you love most that you are such a disappointment for him!

 

What? Where the hell did you get that idea? (confused)

 

I heard you at that time, you and Angelo are talking about me and when he asked you on how you feel about me you told him that It wasn't like you expected!

 

At that time? Wait if I remembered at that time we...

 

Tsk !(click tongue)

 

Are you stupid if you are going to eavesdropped make sure that you finish listening until the end! I can't believe for such simple misunderstanding...

 

you want to know what I said at that time? How do I really feel about you? Yes ! It wasn't really what I thought first, I became too serious that I even chose to stay behind when my mother asked me to come with her in New york because I don't want to leave you!

 

 

 

Like a puzzle piece found everything has been cleared and yet I can't find the strenght to go back with him and confidently say that we can start all over again.

 

Zack there's no point of talking about this things now, we have both move on and have each other life to live with... so please stop doing this...

 

Ten years did past already between us and we are both adults now so we can't just simply take things like "relationship" easy. I know that Zack thinks the same as well. It's not easy to fill in the gaps of ten years. I was ready to end things between me and him but to my surprise he hugged me again and then utter these words;

 

You are the only one who has been able to move on from the past...not after you caught me and made me into someone who can never see other than you!

 

I never give up the thought of seeing you again and I am confident that if that's what you think then I just need to make the you now... Lian Kim... to fall in love with me! And by the time I made you say that you love me again, I won't let you escape this time!

I have this premonition that for the coming days I might be forced to return back to my first love...

Chapter 2 : From the beginning

I don't know how we end the conversation last night, everything happened so fast that I don't have the time to think of what should I do and how to face him from now on. This might sound a joke but this is the first time that I've been confessed and I don't know how to react given as well that the confession came from the man I wish to hear those words from ten years ago.

 

How dare him to say that he's confident that he can make me say that I love him again!

 

I still believe that it's really not easy to fill in the ten years gap and we are both adults now so we can't just simply take things like "going out again" as a simple matter.But to my surprise he on the other hand acts as if nothing happens. Why am I the one who's being conscious around him? His confidence pisses me off!

 

(sharp pain) Ouch! my head hurts...

 

You look pale miss Lian are you okay?

 

Yes, thank you for the concern.

 

I've been working non-stop these days since I don't want to think of him, I guess the stress has piled up and is taking toll on me now. Which is why right now, I am not surprised when I woke up and find myself lying in bed feeling sick and unable to stand. However although my head is still foggy, I am sure that this is not my room. I feel so tired and my head is hurting so much, so I don't have the strength to remember what happened and felt my consciousness fading again.

 

(somebody gently caressing her head)

 

Hmm...this feels good (smiled)

 

I remember this feeling that I haven't felt recently, this warm and gentle feeling that I thought was already long forgotten by me.

 

I see...this feels like his hands holding my hand and caressing my head ten years ago when I become sick and down with flu the day after the stormy night I ran back to get him an umbrella.

 

(Ten years ago)

 

(door bell rings)

 

(lying on the bed) hmmm...who is it? I'm so tired I don't want to be bothered

 

Anne, it's me open the door!

 

Zack? (immediately get-up and rushed to open the door)

 

I...I've heard that you got sick and I'm partially the cause of it so I'm here to give you this (showed her bag of groceries and medicine)

 

Here take this and let me cook for you...

 

He suddenly just let himself in and begun cooking for me, honestly at that time I don't have much strength