Return to First Love - Leandra A. (dark academia books to read TXT) 📗

and appetite so I haven't eaten yet.

 

 I'm sorry this was the first time that you came to visit me and yet I am making you (cough) cook for me. Please don't find me a bother for you...

 

You! (sigh) I know that you are stupid but can you please stop worrying about unnecessary things? Here take this and eat first so you can take your medicine...

 

 Back then I was so happy that he came for me even though I know that he was just doing that in return of what I've done for him. I am already content with the thought of him worrying over me. After eating I thought that he was going to leave immediately but he stayed and tend to me until my fever went down. I was so nervous with the thought of being just me and him inside my room, I remember being so restless the whole time but  I was still able to sleep thanks to my high fever.

 

(Stares at her sleeping face while caressing her head) Sigh..I can't believe this myself... to think that I have fall...

 

I don't know if it's because of my fever but I had this memory of him telling me something important. These past few days the harder I try to forget him the more I recall things of our past together ten years ago which I thought I have already forgotten the past years.

 

(Present)

 

(Rustle noise)

 Anne...wake up, I know that you are tired but you need to eat something

 

(suddenly wake up) Zack? why are you here?

 

What do you mean why I am here? this is my room, I brought you here when I heard that you fainted because of fatigue! (sigh) You haven’t change at all you are still stupid when it comes to your self, do you enjoy making someone worry for you?

 

What...who told you to do this things?…I think I am fine now so I’ll go first (get out of the bed)

 

 Alright if you insist, but let me walk you to your own room right beside mine…

 

What do you mean right beside yours?

 

I rushed outside his room and get to see a familiar scenery and my door just next to his. I can’t believe my eyes but this is reality right?

 

You… What do you think you are doing?

 

(smirks) I’ve decided to find a place near the office and got myself lucky to find this room, although the real reason why I bought it that's because  I’ve heard that you also live here.

 

No way…

 

Please take care of me from now on Ms. Lian (smiled)

 

I’ve been had, I can’t believe this man would come and start living on the same place with me. I don’t remember him being this way to me ten years ago! Every morning he would pests me in going with him to work, if not he’ll force me to have breakfast with him. And there’s no second that he keeps on saying to me to just give up and admit that I’m still in love with him!When did he become such smooth talker? But with all these crazy things that are happening right now, it still made me curious on how was he was able to tell that the I’m the same Anne who confess to him ten years ago...

Things are now connected...

I know this is out of the blue but I've been meaning to ask this for a while, said by her while looking at me which made me curious what she's going to asked me, I know that the first time we met you were not able to tell that it's the same Anne that was with you ten years ago...so how did you know it was me? she continues while waiting for what will be my response.

 

Pfftt...hahaha..I was curious what are you going to ask me with that serious face you are making right now, so you're just curious on how did I know that it's you...Anne, said by me that find her interest in knowing this funny. 

 

It's the way you looks at me and stares me blankly that must be you, thinking how cool or handsome my face was (Smiles at her), I told her while smiling, which made her blush and leave immediately. 

 

The real reason was something so simple actually , is what he thought while smiling and seeing her walk away outside the room. 

 

He then remembers the real reason on how did he noticed that she was the same " Anne" who just suddenly disappeared ten years ago; it's actually the way she looks when she give her best on doing something she wants. It was because of this that he noticed the resemblance of her to the " Anne" who just disappeared on him ten years ago. 

 

Circumstances like her attitude towards him and her reaction every time she was alone with him were have been put together by him and resulted him in one conclusion; that this person, Lian kim and Anne li kim were one and the same person only.

 

Arrgh just remembering the time when she just left me hanging and hiding the truth to me still gets on my nerve!

 

Ten years ago I received a phone call from the person I thought that I never want to see anymore but with just hearing her voice, like a child I longed to see the mother whom I once considered as my most important person in my life.

 

  My son, I know that it might be hard for you to believe me but I did want to take you with me when I left your dad, but at that time I had so many things to take care of and doesn't have the confidence to take care of you and gave you the same things your father can give you, said by her while crying over the phone. 

 

I hope that you'll forgive this selfish mother of yours, my only son, she continued while waiting for my forgiveness. 

 

Honestly if I was the same person as I was before I might not even bother to listen to her and just hung-up the phone now. It was all thanks to her, to you Anne that even if it's little by little my frozen cold heart begun to melt and find a space for forgiveness. 

 

I understand...I already forgiven you...mom, is what I said while thinking how long since then I called someone " Mom". It was by then she told me the real reason for her phone call which her plan to take me with her in New York and live there from now on together with her new husband. 

 

I don't know what will be my answer by then I haven't met you but there's one thing for sure I can't bear the thought of leaving you behind now that I know what I really feels about you. 

 

I'm sorry mom but I have someone whom I can't leave and be separated with no matter what, is what I replied to her.

 

An empty fridge and a handwritten note with some cash on top of it, were the things I always see whenever I gets home and find myself all alone. It made me realized how childish I was at that time whenever I hope for someone to be with me and thus stopped hoping for it. 

 

If it weren't for you I might be still the same person who doesn't give a shit about people and how they think of me. It was your honesty and affection that made me feel like a human again and save me from the hell I created myself because these feeling of emptiness. What I did not expect that you will disappear on me as well like what my mother did, leaving me clueless on what did I do or where I went wrong.

 

 I tried to ask other students and teachers but they didn't even know who is this Anne Li kim that I am talking about! I never gave up the though of seeing you again but as the days go past your face, voice and how you laugh are starting to vanish from my memory which made me even more scared and tremble from the thought of you having the same thing happening. 

 

But the memory of you will never fade no matter what I do these past years even if I tried several times to be mad and angry with you... I just can't do it. 

 

It was the same when I first learned that you and this Ms. Lian Kim are the same person. You don't know how much I waited to see you again. And even if your appearance and image has change, although you are saying that you have forgotten me and denying that you are still into me, I know that you are still the same person I fell in love ten years ago, and even if you have forgotten it, I'll just have to make you remember and return you back on being in love to your first love.

Let's Skip Step One

He is definitely watching me, Is what she thought as she looks behind her table and see Zack staring at her.

 

It's been a month since he move next to her room and almost live together. But both of them did not tell their past relationship and their current situation to anyone at work. They both act as if nothing has happened last time.

 

Here are the paperwork you ask me to get for you, Anne said to him and then hand him the documents he asked her to get.

 

But as she moved closer to put down the paperwork, he tightly hold her hands and then smiled at her. This made her surprise and almost dropped the documents.

 

What are you doing? she whispered to him and then tried to let go of his hand that's holding her.

 

Aren't you tired of these cat- mouse chase were doing? he told her and then grabbed her hand more tightly.

 

What do you mean? she asked her and then grab his hand to let go of her hand. Let's not talk about this here, she said while looking around if anybody noticed them and then she told him that she will go to his house later to talk about this things with him.

 

Although Zack has been relentlessly telling her that he will make her say the same words she told him ten years ago, Anne was reluctant to believe his sincerity at all.

 

I can't forget you... not when you made me this way, that's what he told her after she told