She is the one by Asheslove (that summer book .TXT) 📗

‘That was not me, you hear me that was not me. it was six years ago, I left it behind. I had already suffered because of that so now don’t drag me again’ I shouted at the broken pieces.

‘You can deny as much you want but you heart knows very well it was you. This guilt settled in your heart is because of your doing. You are the person responsible for taking someone life mercilessely, because of you that innocent girl almost died trying to save you. You can’t run away from yourself, you can’t’ sounds kept echoing and ringing in my head and when I looked down at the broken pieces there was still blood on me.

‘Why? Why, why, why’ I cried and rubbed my face scratching and digging my nails harshly in my skin on face and arms making it bleed.
‘You did nothing wrong Elena. Forget about what happened there’s no blood on your hands, don’t hear to this voice. You know these, these are lying, your demons wanted to overpower you again so don’t give them control over you. You are strong, remember. This all is a lie, these images are lying’ my mind said near to my ear.
‘Yes you are right, there’s no blood on my hands. This all is elusion, this is my fear making me hallucinate. None of these voices are real’ I murmured to myself but before I could gain control over me the negative sounds surrounded me again and called.

 ‘Nothing is elusion, these voices, these images, these all are real, this is truth. This is your reality you are hiding from. We found you, we found you again and now you can’t run away from us’.

‘No’ I stated moving my head. ‘No, stop, just stop this and go away’ ‘leave me alone’ I wailed and shrieked loudly and with my drenched shaking body and wobbling feet I slowly started to walk backwards away from these voices. I knew these voices were not real, these were all my elusions which I am hallucinating, this is all my fear trying to invade in me again because I had faced these all things before and not for once for many times but these still have same effect on me. 

After taking few steps backwards my feet stumbled, I tripped and landed on floor but I didn’t cry. I only kept chanting 

‘stop, go way, please, just go away and leave me’. 

I crawled backwards on my hands dragging my body on broken pieces of mirror. Some sharp pieces dig inside my palms, my bare legs, and thighs penetrating easily through my soft skin but I didn’t felt any pain. Walking away from these voices is more important for me which are following me. 

‘You can’t run away from us, we live inside you and we will not let you forget how you killed him’.

I tried to shove myself more in the wall behind me when my back hit it. I was in high state of panic. Bringing my trembling knees closer to my chest I curled my body up and laid on the floor near the wall when didn’t found any space to go further. The voices kept echoing so I covered my ears tightly with my quaking hands.

'Stop it, stop it, stop it' I started screaming my lungs out with my eyes shut to avoide the sounds around me.

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