She is the one by Asheslove (that summer book .TXT) 📗

I want the comfort which my dad gave me in his hold, the warmth my mom provides when she embrace me when I used to have panic attack before. These people which live all around me are monsters; I am living with a devil himself. He is a killer, a monster, he is a psychopath he doesn’t have a heart to feel anything or any emotion and I already knew it then why he had to kill Simon in front of my eyes, why? He brought all my memories back, now they will haunt me and drag me in the depths of darkness again and thinking all this I closed my wet damped eyelids.

About twenty minutes later the door open and he barge in. I lifted my head up and my eyes fall on him. 

My body cringed; heartbeat increased rapidly, breathing become unsteady, blood run cold and I felt again a panic attack rising inside me when I looked at him. The man who destroyed my life, the man who took me away from my family, the man who ruined everything and brought my fear back which was buried in me for his selfishness, the man who killed someone in front of me and forced me to witness his death, the man who took advantage of me and forced himself on me when I was numb to feel anything.

He looked like came in hurry or from a long run as he was sweating profoundly.

Pain, hatred, anger, fear, rage, disgust, detestation envelope inside me and the most prominent were fear, anger and hatred. A look of consternation took over my face and I clenched the sheets underneath me tightly in my fists. I swear to god if my mind was not in haze and blankness after he killed Simon I certainly would have done something when he raped in the bathroom and I will never forgave this man in my life for that but he won. After doing all this, now he build a fear for him inside me, he made me feel numb and brought me at my worst and all I wish now is to disappear from his sight. 

He looks like relaxed when he saw me and started approaching towards me. Hot flashes appeared, I remembered the dark look in his eyes when he shoots Simon, all my emotions, my feelings dissipated and turned into pure fear and terror which was sinking inside me engulfing my entire self. I curled myself up in the tiniest ball and started shoving myself in the headboard my foot slipping on the silky bed sheets. Even after knowing there is no place further behind me I kept shifting. The closer he was coming more my fear was growing. His each step towards me made me wanting the walls behind open and swallows me inside. 

He reached near me and I freeze, my movement stopped and eyes shut, not wanting to see his face and in his mesmerizing blue orbs because of both fear and hatred. His hot mint breathing felt closer to my face and I shivered knowing his face was just an inch away from me. 

‘Elena’ he rasped, his breathing loud and heavy, rising and falling. I shuddered when I heard my name, my heartbeat hearing to my ears and I licked my trembling dry lips gulping my saliva. 

His face came again closer to me as I feel his breath tickling my skin, his fingers buried inside my hairs and in next second I felt his soft lips on mine. 

He kissed me roughly, his lips moving over mine. Sucking my full lips, his tongue invaded inside my mouth without any obstacle. His tongue moved inside freely exploring the length of each and every corner of my mouth tasting it. It revolve around my tongue telling me to move mine and kiss him back but instead a tear slip from my closed eyes and hit his hand which he wiped away from his thumb caressing my cheek and deepened the kiss. He was eating my whole mouth like wanted to remember my taste forever. Breathing become impossible for me, my lungs started to scream for air but I remained still not even pushing him away so that I could breath, silent tears rolling down hitting his hand which was holding my face. After few long seconds he pulled away when he himself became breathless, my wet lips still slightly parted. 

'What happened to you earlier' he grumbled from his pants, his breath fanning my tears stained cheeks, and his tongue licking my sour tears on my cheeks as he waited for me to reply back but I remained stiff with my eyes shut, suddenly his movement stopped, his hand came out from my scalp and I felt his breath shifting away from me.

‘Fucking breath Elena’ he shouted shaking me from my arms. 

My eyes snapped open and that’s when I realized I wasn’t even breathing. I inhaled the air sharply taking a long breath while he kept staring me the whole time. 

He cursed angrily and made me jump out of the bed in fear when he grabbed the lamp across the bed and crashed it on the opposite wall. The room echoed when the glass lamp hit the wall and shattered into pieces and I turned rigid holding the wall behind me, my nails trying to dig it.

My tears stop, so the sound of my breathing. I hyperventilate and started trembling not daring to look at his face waiting for his next move, but to my dismay without saying a word or doing anything further he slide off the bed and banging the door left the room.

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‘No, I didn’t, plea....’ ‘Please’ ‘please go, leave me alone’ I stuttered and started weeping but the voices and that bloodied man kept following me. My whole body is dripping red and I am running away from him. My breathing is loud, short, heavy and faint, body trembling tremendously. I didn’t feel air around me to breath and at last I found a corner in a dark cold room. My legs turned jello and panting heavily I fall there. I drawn my knees closer to my chest and wrapped my arms tightly around them. 

“don’t please, don’t’ I started chanting haltingly from my trembling voice and shut my eyes knowing he is coming for me.

Hey, ssh ssh, calm down

Words reach to my ears far away from me somewhere echoing in the dark. I opened my eyes and lifted my head up trying to look from where these words are coming, who is trying to calm me.