Ex-Wife by Mirah Selim (interesting books to read in english .txt) 📗

Amelia smiled hearing his words. More tears escaped Xander's eyes looking up the ceiling taking deep breaths.

"That night was the first time when she made the first move and let me take our marriage to another level. The first time I touched her. The first time we both entered an intimated relationship." Xander chuckled letting more tears escaped his eyes.

"But I wish that would be enough to lessen my pain. My guilt but it wasn't. Years went away. And one day I came to know that Mia was suffering from a brain tumour." Amelia gasped while Xander sobbed out.

"I fought with her that why she didn't tell me. She said she also came to know when there was no hope for her to get treatment. I tried everything to find a cure for her but every Doctor said the same. There was no hope for her to be saved. I remember how she smiled last time. How she mumbled my name saying to take care of Alex. How she asked me to find a better woman and marry her. To move on. To let her go. To r-remember her but as a f-friend."

Xander burst out in heavy tears. Loud sobs ripped through his lips making Amelia cry out silently as well. She gently wrapped her arms around him pulling him in her embrace. He did nothing except to hold her close. He let his head be buried in her crook crying out like a child.

"S-She died i-in my a-arms Amelia. I w-witnessed her b-being buried. I w-watched her l-leaving me. O-Our son. S-She. I ----" Amelia tightened her grip on him when his sobbing turned louder. He couldn't even be able to say one word without stuttering.

"Enough Xander. Don't do this." She said rubbing his back but he cried shaking his head.

"I did everything she asked me. She forgave me, Amelia. She did. She told me that for million times but my mind. Soul. Heart every fibre of my body refused to let my pain. My guilt go away. I was never able to gain her love. I just. I" He clutched her dress letting out few sobs.

"I just w-wanted to be loved by her. She never said she loved me. Never. I was her sinner. I still am. I-I can't forget it. I can't." Amelia let him cry his heart out in her embrace.

After a while of crying, he finally relaxed a bit. She gently laid him down on the bed while she laid beside him. They both stared at each other in silence.

"Then why your father. And also why don't you go to her grave anymore." She decided to ask him when he relaxed a bit. He wasn't crying anymore but his eyes were bloodshot and puffy.

"I told my father everything when Mia was on the verge of death. My father was ashamed of the things I did to Mia. He asked Mia for forgiveness on my behave but she being kind-hearted told him and how much I did for her and she had forgiven me a long time ago. But my father refused to forgive me. I endured his cold shoulder and anger for the past 4 years. And finally, he forgave me because of you." He said caressing her cheek making her smile.

"I went to her grave on the first death anniversary and that day I remember how much I cried. I couldn't get myself to stand without letting out one tear. It was so hard to look at her grave without crying out and I wasn't strong enough to cry in front of Alex again next year. So I stopped visiting her grave in the presence of Alex. I did visit her on every death anniversary but not with Alex."

Amelia sighed nodding her head. She knew it wasn't the right time to say anything. He needed some time. He needed to be relaxed. He needed to have a little sleep. His eyes were shouting the sleepless nights they had gone through. Why didn't she notice it before? Why didn't she notice the deep pain they held.

She knew the sadness in them and she had seen it a long time ago But the pain she saw today. She couldn't help but feel immense pain in her heart as well.

She slowly wrapped her arms around his neck pulling her head in her embrace. Xander without any protest let himself be comforted in her arms. She smiled feeling him snuggling in her crook.

It was his most vulnerable time and she proved to be his comfort in all times.

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There are some things I wasn't able to explain as I didn't know where to add them so here they are.

1- Mia had no family. She was an orphan. She used to live with her one aunt only but she died when Mia turned 17. After that she started studying and doing job together. Xander helped her financially a lot.

2- When that incident happened Xander was working on his Company's betterment. He wasn't a billionaire that time. So that's why it wasn't easy for him to find Maxim.

3- Maxim never came back. Neither Mia tried to know about him nor Xander ever tried to find him.

4- Mia loved Xander but as a friend. She tried to love him. She even tried a real marriage life with him but her heart never accepted him.

5- Xander wasn't madly in love with her. Or crazily in guilt. His actions and emotions were a mixture. He loved but regretted the things he did at the same time.

6- Must be like why Mia had an intimated relationship with Xander. Why she let him touch her and all. Because she wanted to try a real marriage with him. She wanted to give him the love he deserved but fate had decided something else and she was diagnosed with Brain tumour. Plus you can't expect a grown up man to not have his needs espeacially who works so much. So she made her mind to try a new life with him. After all she had forgiven a long time ago.

7- Lastly I know you want to know why Xander wasn't able to have Alex custody when he's the legal father. I will explain it in next chp. ;)

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