Ex-Wife by Mirah Selim (interesting books to read in english .txt) 📗

I looked at the ring in my hand. It was Mia and my wedding ring. I removed it when I buried Mia with my own hands. When I vowed to not let a single tear out watching her memories.

But I failed. I failed every time I went to her grave. I failed every time I remember that dreadful night.

Maybe what I did became a fortune for Mia as she came to know Maxim's reality but it still doesn't justify what I did. It wasn't my place to do something I wasn't supposed to.

Maybe she would have forgiven Maxim. Maybe Maxim had accepted her and his baby instead of his family. Maybe he had done this and that. But all of these makes me believe that indeed it wasn't my place to do the things I did.

I sinned. And I can't change it. I redeemed it but my soul refused to accept the redemption.

Sighing heavily I instantly pushed the ring in the pocket of my coat that I was wearing. I heard the door crack and watched my beautiful miracle entering the room.

She smiled at me tightening the coat on her tiny figure. Even though she's a tall woman but she still looks so tiny in front of me comparing our body size and I love it.

I went to her and wrapped my arms around her slender shoulders pulling her in a tight hug. She did nothing except hug me back.

I was scared. I am scared. Extremely scared. I don't know how I will be able to hold myself back watching that grave that never failed to haunt me in my dreams.

"Don't worry Xander. Everything will be alright. I am with you. In your every step." I closed my eyes inhaling her addictive rosy scent.

I know she's with me in my every step but how could I tell her how much I am scared. Scared to face my first love's grave with my son. The same son I am ashamed to face without feeling guilty.

When I woke up Amelia and I had a long discussion and finally I gave up. She asked me to attend the death anniversary of my late wife with my son. After 3 years I am again going to her grave with Alex.

I hate to show my son how weak. How broken I am. I hate being weak in front of him but I just couldn't say no to Amelia when she told me how desperately Alexander wanted me to go with him.

She grabbed my hand giving it a slight tug and we went to our destination more like my ruination. Alex was happy to see me but I still could see how sad he was and why not. Today is his mother's death anniversary. The day he lost her. Forever.

Alex was the first one who went to her grave while I stood there froze stared at the beautiful grave with her name carved on the tomb.

Mia Storm.

Alex cried touching her grave while I walked towards him with my trembling legs. I felt everything blurry around me. The only thing I could do is to stare at the place where she was buried years ago. Where I buried her with my own hands.

My Mia. My one sided love. The woman I am a sinner of. The woman who never loved me.

I felt my legs giving up as soon as I reached the grave and fell beside my weeping son. He looked up only to find my teary eyes staring at him.

"Dad." I pulled him in my arms hugging him tightly as he did the same. We both burst out in heavy tears letting the whole world hear our agony.

"I am sorry son. I am sorry. I am really a bad father. I am sorry." He cried shaking his head pressing himself more in my embrace.

"No, dad. You're the best father. I love you so much." I smiled through my teary eyes hearing his words. How much proud I felt at that time.

I felt someone placing a soft hand on my shoulder and a presence beside me. Turning my head my bloodshot eyes met beautiful grey ones of my wife.

"It's fine. Just cry as much as you want. No one will ever judge you." I wrapped my one arm around her pulling her in my arms as well.

All of us remained in each other's arms. And as soon as I closed my eyes.

Smiling Mia came in front of me. Her eyes were telling me only one thing.

She's happy. Happy for the family I made. I Amelia and our son.

Pulling the ring out of my pocket I placed it on her grave covering it with the soil of her grave.

Yes. She was right. Sometimes moving on is better than holding on to something that was and can never be yours.

I accept it. I will move on Mia. I will.

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I wanted to show what Xander was feeling during the past chapters so here it is. Hope you like it.

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