Her Love Fades... - Kerry Boo.. (books to read in a lifetime TXT) 📗

besides I hated that bitch.

I walked past Luke and he put his hand on my shoulder. I stopped and turned towards him. “Hey Luke” I smiled.

His eyes were so soft. He smiled back at me. “Hey slut.” He walked away laughing.

I leaned against my locker and started crying. Slut!? What did I do to be a slut?i stood up and ran out of the school only to run into a lady standing there. “Excuse me… I’m so sorry…” I

choked out.
She reached down and gave me her hand, “No problem Andi.” I gulped and glanced at the ground.

“How do you know who I am?”

She raised my head up and looked me in the eyes. “I told you Andi, I am your mother.”

“How can you even say you are my mother? After 14 years of having nothing to do with me, what the fuck, gives you the right to call my house and be like ‘oh I’m your mom and I’m sorry I haven’t been there your whole life, but I would like to be there now!’ you can’t fucking do that!! It is too late for me to even think about you.”

“Andi…Please baby…” she was begging me.

I was crying for Luke, and now this psycho bitch was showing up and trying to be in my life. I ran my hand through my hair and covered my face…”I have to go.”

I started running faster and faster, now I was s slut….I was a slut to Luke….i started walking, I didn’t know where I was headed, I was staring down at the ground and my feet were carrying me there. When I looked up I was in front of Luke’s house. I shook my head and kept walking, if I’m such a slut then I don’t want anything to do with him….Cause obviously he doesn’t want anything
to do with me.

I didn’t know what time I left the school and started running, and I didn’t know what time it was now… All I knew is when I looked up again I was standing on some train tracks, There are no train tracks even remotely close to my house. I looked up at the sky and it was starting to get dark, the clouds were threatening a storm. Bring the storm. I whispered to myself….If anything a storm can make it better, or is it really this bad now, that nothing would make it better?
I felt of drop of rain on my head and looked up, the next drop of rain landed right under my
left eye. I wiped it away as though it was a tear.

Everything can back to me at that moment that is why I fell to the ground begging for death. Luke thought I was a slut….I didn’t even know I did anything, my ‘mom’ committed suicide, and now some lady was telling me she was my real mom and she wanted to be in my life with my real dad? ….When I was in the woods I remember what happened…. I was raped….
I started crying

My mom’s psycho ex boyfriend kidnaps me and I don’t know what he did……….my dad…and…….oh my god just fucking kill me!!

I looked up and that sky and repeadtly begged for death. I heard the train, didn’t mean I cared, didn’t mean I was going to move. I was going to sit right there and hope that the train didn’t have enough time to stop….Come on train…faster… I thought to myself.

The train was so close and I couldn’t wait, when someone wrapped they’re arms around my waist and shoved me out of the way.

I sat there on the ground with that person as the train passed. Wishing whoever it was would have been to late…..

Luke
I know, that was harsh, I called andi a slut. I snapped. It has been confirmed by all of those people that she honestly did all of those things. And I just snapped. I wish I could take it back now, I seen the tears running down her face and her eyes were so innocent... I don’t know what came over me; I just know I hurt her.

Everywhere I looked there were people laughing and giving me thumbs up. I smiled and laughed along with them even though I felt like shit; I wasn’t going to let anyone else know that.

“Luke I seen what you said to Andi…that was kind of harsh, don’t you think?”

“Why would you care Raena?” I rolled my eyes, come on… I couldn’t date this chick if she was going to make me feel like shit!

“Because, Andi was my best friend.”

That news caught me off guard but I rolled my eyes. “Look, if you don’t like me talking shit
about Andi, then don’t hang out with me and don’t talk to me, and don’t listen to me! Because all that bitch is, is a slut!!”

Raena took a deep breath. “All that bitch is, is a slut??” she screamed at me, I nodded my head. “Luke that bitch is the girl that you fell in love with, and you are still in love with! You didn’t bother getting her side of the story first and you know what!? Fuck you! She deserves so much better, and so do is. So fuck you.”

She turned and walked away. “Fuck you to Raena.”

I walked over to Maddie. “Great choice, picking Andi’s ex best friend for me to date! Stupid bitch!”

“Whoa Luke, Chill the fuck out….What happened?”

“Raena was all up in my grill bout calling Andi a slut! So Ya.”

“You fucking dumb ass Luke!! Don’t you see what I was doing? You date Andi’s ex best friend and she gets jealous as fuck, and then you have all the cards. Fucking idiot. Can you do anything right!?”

I took a deep breath and pictured myself punching Maddie. What is wrong with me!? I whispered…I walked away and turned towards my house, when I got home I went in and plopped on my bed to lay down. I closed my eyes.

I was at the hospital, the doctor walked in. “Luke, I found out what was wrong with you.”

I nodded my head. “OK what is it?”
“You have a broken heart; it hurt you so bad that you stabbed it and it died and now you are heartless.”

I jolted up in my bed. What the fuck? I scratched my head and looked around me. Whatever.
I climbed out of bed and walked out the door, it was too early to sleep and now even if I wanted
to, I couldn’t.

I walked the skate park where everyone always hung out. I walked up to some girl. “Hey, I’m Luke, You are?”

“Stephanie.” She winked at me.

“Nice to meet you Stephanie, Wanna come back to my place?”

“Sure, I would love to.” She stood up and grabbed her hand

“Good.” I led her towards my house and we slipped inside, here take a seat I’ll get you a drink.”
She grabbed my hand. “Nawh Luke, why don’t you sit with me?”

I sat beside her and she moved closer. “So I don’t think I know you.”

“Funny, because I don’t know you either, but I thought you were hot, and I hoped you wanted to make out.”

She laughed, “Well, with you being so honest, how can I say no?”

I shook my head “guess you can’t.” we started making out. Damn she was a good kisser, now this
is the kind of slut I need.

Andi
“What the fuck!?? Why would you save me!? I knew that was there!!! I just hoped that I could just die!!”

“What no thank you?”

I turned and glared at the kid. “Thank you for ruining my chances of dying.”

“Look suicide, not the answer. Never the answer.”

“Whatever. Who are you?”

My name is Lukas.”

I closed my eyes for a long time and shook my head; the tears started flooding down my face,
pouring from my eyes….all the memories of me and Luke came flooding back into my mind… The way he held me when I was sad, the way he gently kissed my lips… The way he held me in his arms when he was sleeping…how perfect it once was.

“Hello??? Earth to suicidal girl, my Name is Lukas…Who are you?”

“Uhhh….” I stalled. “I am Andi…”

“Oh, nice to meet you Andi, Wasn’t a nice way to meet you, But you know at least I met you, oh and I’m kind of your hero now, aren’t I??” he winked at me and I rolled my eyes.

“Sure.”

He grabbed my hand and helped me up. “Look obviously I am not welcomed here, so Ima go now….Have a good day Andi. Why don’t you text me some time.” He handed me his number and disappeared. Literally disappeared… wtf?

I stared after where Lukas once stood. There was no trace, he just vanished. I shook my head and turned home, towards my house trying to make sense of what happened. How life got so messed up. I walked past Luke’s house and stared straight ahead. I had to be strong, I couldn’t be weak in
this moment alone, I will be ok. I kept chanting in my head. I will be ok.

I could hear Luke talking; I was so close to turning around and going back to the tracks. It wasn’t just his voice I heard it was giggling, some prissy dumb ass bimbo. He was laying in the grass with her, exactly where we laid together. I couldn’t stand the sight of them and started crying. I fell to the ground and crawled into a ball. Pathetic. Were the only words in my head. I’m. Pathetic.

The sun soon disappeared as I laid there in my own tears. I looked up and seen the black clouds heading over me, Please…Please let there be lighting, Please Please, Let it get me.
“Andi?” I looked up and seen Luke standing there with a grin on his face. “What the fuck are you doing here?”

The salty water began pouring from my eyes again, and all I was able to do was shrug my shoulders.

“Andi… You’re a slut. I don’t want anything to do with you.”

I buried my head in my arms. “How am I slut?” I finally managed to speak after what seemed like eternity.

I could sense him roll his eyes. “How aren’t you a slut? Wayne, Becca, Aidan, Alec, I’m sure there was more. You cheated on me, and you never even told me, Where as I cheated on you and I told you everything…. You told me nothing.”

I forced my head up and my eyes straight ahead, I forced myself to look at him. “Luke… I would never do something like that…. I loved you…. And…. I love you… Why would I do something that’s going to hurt you like that?? I promised myself that I would never do that again… I wasn’t lying I didn’t cheat on you Luke… I never would.”

His eyes softened up as he grabbed my hand. “Andi, why would Maddie tell me that you did? Why would she tell me all that? Maddie is my best friend…”

I shook my head. “I swear, I don’t know… But I know I didn’t do that.”
He glanced beside him… “Promise Andi?”

“Pinky