Her Love Fades... - Kerry Boo.. (books to read in a lifetime TXT) 📗

leaned down and he whispered in my ear “I see why you love him so much.”

I froze for a little before nodding my head and getting sad. “Ya.” I mumbled.. “Don’t remind me.”
He blew in my ear causing me to giggle, and I glanced up at Luke, Once again he had pure jealousy on his face “So…Uh Andi I really need to talk to you… about earlier.

I looked back at Lukas. “I’ll be right back, ok?”

He frowned and nodded his head. “Hurry back, I’ll miss you.”

I laughed and kissed his cheek. “I will, I promise.” I grabbed Luke’s hand and pulled him into my room closing the door. “Ok, Luke, what do you want? Why are you here?”

“I need to talk to you…………………………..” he let the sentence drag on and on.

“Ok, talk.” I muttered.

“About earlier… I…..I….went to the doctors and they said I have a heart murmur…. And I don’t know honestly how that will effect my life… and I was just trying to push you away..”
I felt the tears start escaping from my eyes. The breath was knocked out of me. I ran towards him and wrapped my arms around him bawling on his chest. In the spur of the moment I reached down and grabbed my stomach darting to the bathe room and throwing up. Life just got a hell of a lot worse.

He knocked on the door. “Andi are you ok?”

I shrugged even though he couldn’t see through the door. “mhm just nascious.”

He opened the door and I tried to hide my face. “No. Luke, don’t look. I look like shit.” I said remembering what he just told me in the other room, I could feel a tear fall down my face as I started gagging.

He walked up behind me and moved my hair to the back so it wasn’t in the way. “Shh it’s ok baby girl.”

Why was he making me feel better? ? He was the one who had a heart murmur. Maybe I was over reacting because I didn’t really know anything thing about having a heart murmur… but….. I mean just the thought that something was wrong with him had me crying! I pushed myself away from the toilet and threw my arms around him. “I’ll live.” I whispered.

He held me so tightly.

And I could do was cry and wish that he would be ok

He’s my everything that I want and everything I need in my life, when they’re your best friend and you guys have been through so much together? When all you can do is cry and hope they will be ok.

I wound my arms around his neck and kissed him a long time. He pulled back as soon as a tear rolled from my eyes and landed on his hand. “Baby girl… I have hope…” he whispered.

I shook my head. “Luke, I know your past and I know you don’t care that your probably gonna die, and I know that all you want is to get it over with…”

“That was before you came into my life, Andi. Scratch that… that was before you became my life.” He took his finger and wiped away the tears that I continued to cry

I sat him on my bed and walked into the living room. Lukas was gone. I looked around outside to see if he stepped out for some fresh air, but he left. I walked back into my room and turned on my radio. Luke had laid down, so I sat down beside him and covered him up.

He uncovered and pulled me down beside him, all I could do was cry. I remembered laying in the grass with him, the bonfire, sitting in the truck, the times at school, every little fight…everything about us.

I started sobbing in his ear, so I leaned up and wiped away my tears that just continuously poured. I heard him sniffling and looked over to see him fighting back tears as well. I wanted to hold him and I wanted to tell him everything would be fine, but I would never lie to Luke, and and it didn’t feel like anything would ever be fine, and I can’t tell him not to cry if I am going to cry.

Trap by echo came on and made me cry even harder.

Close my eyes
Let the whole time pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I’ll run away with you by my side
I’ll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go , let go of this pride,
(asking why)

I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don’t need to solve this case
And I don’t need to look behind

Do I expect to change, the past I hold inside,
With all the words I say,
Repeating over in my mind,
Sometimes you can’t erase, no matter how hard you try,
An exit to escape is all there is left to find.

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I’ll run away with you by my side
I’ll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo is in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

(I know I always loved you)
(I know I always loved you)
(I know I always loved you)

So I close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I’ll run away with you by my side
I’ll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo is in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

Luke,
I told I had a heart murmur.., just like that. I wanted to be gentler about it, but I just needed her to understand what was going on, she cried. No she bawled. She still is. I hate seeing Andi cry. All I can do is cry. I’m so exhausted. She was hugging her knees and sitting at the edge of her bed. I couldn’t see her face… I could her hear sobs. She was trying to push them away. I leaned up and wrapped my arms around her and held her in a tight embrace, “Andi, I love you… I am going to fight this for us.”

“I love you to boo………..” she smiled a smile that didn’t quite match her.

I hugged her tight. “Please baby, don’t be sad for me.” I whispered as I moved her hair out of her face

“How can’t I be?”

I watched as one tear after another escalated down her cheeks.
I frowned and kissed her underneath her eye. “Please...”

She nodded her head and looked in the other direction. “Ok…”

She looked down at her bed and I watched as a tear landed on her arm.

I lifted her chin with my finger so she was staring me in the face. “Baby girl I don’t know anything about it, I should have learned more about it before I told you…”

I made her face me, and I tried to get her to look into my eyes, but she closed her eyes.

“Luke…………….I have to tell you something to…...”

I nodded my head and hugged her. “OK baby girl, what is it?”

She took a deep breath, and a single tear rolled down her face. “I…I think I’m… pregnant.”

My face went expressionless. “You what!???”

“I have an appointment in an hour.” She wiped away her tears, which is good because I couldn’t even move.

“Can I go?” I finally managed to speak.

“mhm.” She lay back down on her bed and faced her back to the wall.

I layed in front of her facing her. “Baby girl, this won’t change anything…”

She nodded her head…”I know…” I think I heard her whisper “I was afraid of that.”

I kissed her nose and closed my eyes, resting there. I guess I fell asleep.

“Luke…” she whispered and shook me. “Wake up...”

I rolled over and muttered “Leave me aloneeee.”

She shrugged her shoulders. “k. I’ll go without you.”

I jumped up. “NO! Sorry, I’m up, I’m up.” I said as I stood up.

She was staring at me, so I looked down to make sure I was wearing pants. “What are you staring at?” I asked her laughing.

“Your sexy body.” She replied without looking away.

I laughed. “Shit when did I take that off?” I asked as I motioned towards my shirtless body.

She again shrugged her shoulders. “Idk. Ready to go?”

I walked over to her and pulled her in for a hug. “Baby, what’s wrong?”

She stared up at me. “Luke, I’m so scared.”

“Everything will be ok.” I said as I threw my shirt on and grabbed her hand. “Here” I reached my hand out for her keys. “I’ll drive; I don’t think you can handle it right now.”

She nodded her head and handed me the keys.

I walked ahead of her and opened up her door for her. “I promise Andi.” I leaned in and kissed her before gently closing her door. I ran around the other side of her car and climbed in, started the car, and drove towards the hospital. When we were about a block from the hospital I slammed on the brakes causing us to both jerk forwards. “Fucking dumb ass!” I screamed out the window as I flipped the guy who ran the red light off. “You ok baby girl?” I asked.

“yup.” I nodded my head and kept driving.

I pulled into the parking lot and jumped out of the car to open her door, grabbed her hand and helped her through the door.

“oh my god… Andi is that you?” I heard someone ask. I looked around confused.

Andi jumped up and down and ran over to some lady “Tammy!!” she squealed with excitement. They hugged for awhile before pulling back.

The lady, Tammy I’m assuming her name was put her hands on her hips. “What the hell are you doing her? This is for pregnant chicks only and I swear to god!! Andi if you are pregnant so help you!!

Andi glanced back at me…. “Uh, well I think I am.”

Tammy followed her gaze back towards me. “OH HELL NO!” she yelled “RANDY! GET OUT HERE!”

A few minutes later some big muscled dude walking out of the back.”Holy shit, do my eyes deceive me? IS that my little Andi over there?”

Andi nodded her head. “That would be me….” She whispered as she slowly slide halfway behind my back.

“Andi why are you hiding” Randy asked her.

“Do you not know where we are Randy??” Tammy asked him pointing at the sign.

“Andi… are you pregnant?” she slid farther behind me without saying a word.

“And, this” he said pointing to me. “This is the father isn’t it?”

I felt her nod her head and heard her whisper. “if there is one, this is