Last Words - zzmbrashear (icecream ebook reader TXT) 📗

job here?” I asked. The man was a small portly guy. He had a bald spot on his head which he covers with his longer hair. He has an over grown mustache and a grin that you couldn’t forget.
“We are short staffed but we are also short on the big bucks.” He said while sitting at his desk, trying to act sophisticated.
“Well I will work minimum wage and I can work from eight in the morning to eight at night most days.” I said. I put my hands together and started to mumble please please.
“Okay but don’t let me down. You start today. Work till eight p.m.” He said while throwing me a name tag. I smiles and went to the front desk. It was a long day and not many customers but there was a lot of men in there late forties with prostitutes. Most of them young but I wanted no business with that.
Its finally 8:00 P.M. I get to go to sleep. I made about 85 dollars today. Its almost enough to pay the hotel bill. Maybe I could ask if he could cut the bill in half since I am working for him, short chance. Another day or two I will be making a profit! There’s not much to do around here. I miss Leona and Brandon..... and Eric. They are the past and I chose this direction so I have to follow it, I’m wondering were it would lead. Around eleven p.m. my phone goes off. I look at the caller I.D and its Brandon. I answer.
“Hello?” I said. I was yawning form getting woken up.
“Where are you? You have scared me silly!” He said.
“I’m not telling you were I am. No one can find me!” I said.
“Everybody is worried especially your mom.” He said.
“ Listen, I know you care but I need a break from every one.” I said.
“Okay but if you get in any trouble I’m just a call away.” He said.
“I love you Brandon.” I said, I thought about taking it back but I didn’t.
“I love you too.” He said. Then he hung up. I set my phone down and sat on the bed. I thought about a lot of things. About how I acted towards Kyle and everybody whom I’m missing. Maybe I couldn’t have listened to Kyle a little more but I wasn’t going to leave. I missed Leona. She was my best friend since forever ago. I wonder if I’ll ever get to see her again. I wanted to get my mind off of things so I turned on the television.
“16 year old Jillian Smith went missing yesterday. She has wavy, strawberry blond hair. She is 5 foot 7 and 135 pounds. If you have any information on this girl then please call the number below.” I was speechless. I didn’t think my mom would call the police about it. Then my mom came on screen.
“Please Jillian if your watching this, come home! We miss you! Please baby come home!” She started to cry before she could finish the sentence. Then Kyle went to comfort her so I turned off the television. Then I had an revolution! What if the manager saw this, he would call! What am I going to do? I calmed down. I looked out the hotel window and no one was there so I took a deep breath. I decided that I would keep my mouth shut and hope he wont tell.

May 15, 2010

Its been a while since I wrote in my diary but I think I have been depressed. I’m not sure because I have never been depressed before but I just don’t feel like doing anything. I miss my old life. I know I cant go back but I dream about it. My phone rang over fifteen times but I don’t pick it up. When it called again I decided to pick it up because if it rang again I think I would lose it.
“Hello?” I said while sitting on my bed.
“Jill! Thank God your okay!” Eric said. I was surprised because I didn’t even think he cared I was gone.
“Eric? What do you want?” I asked.
“Jilly Billy I was so wrong! I love you! I know I haven’t been the most reliable boyfriend but I will change I promise. You running away really put things into perspective. Without you, I don’t know what I’ll do! Please come back. I know Brandon is more of the perfect guy for you but I cant lose you.” He took a breath.
“Slow down! Are you crazy? I told you that I cant do this thing with you anymore. I want a steady relationship and all you want is a girl you can play. I don’t want to be that girl anymore. “ I got quieter. “I’m sorry.” Then he hung up. I felt so bad. When I went to work the manager was waiting for me.
“Jill.” He said with his deep voice.
“Yes.” I replied.
“I have to go out with the Mrs. tonight so if you don’t mind, could you close up?” He asked and relief flooded my body.
“Of course!” I said.
“Oh and-” He reached for his pocket. “Here is your check for this week and I gave you a bonus.” I smiled and thanked him. About half way through my shift I decided to look at my pay check to see how much of a raise he gave me. I got around five hundred dollars as usual but there were two checks. The second one had one hundred dollars on it. I was speechless. That is a whole days pay!
It felt like forever until I was able to switch shifts. When I went to my room I felt lonely. No Mom, no Laura and no Brandon or Eric. I feel like I want to go home but how can I? They will send me a million miles away and then I would feel even more lonely.

May 16, 2010

When I got up for my shift today I had a big surprise. Kyle was there but no one was with him.
“Jillian you should come home.” He said as he approached me.
“How did you find me?” I asked. He looked different from when I last saw him. He looked more tense and worried.
“I cant tell you but I promise I wont tell you Mother where you are.” He paused for a moment. “She is very worried about you. She hasn’t slept since you left. You have to come home, for you Mother.”
“Kyle-” I started to say but he interrupted.
“Jill, I know you don’t want to leave and move but you have to understand that I love you Mother and wouldn’t want to hurt you but we both want to move, to start over. I know you may not like it but we are not trying to hurt you. If you wanted your Mom to be truly happy you would come with us when we leave. Think about it.” Kyle said. What he said really got me thinking. I was being unfair to my Mom. She was always there for me and I’m letting her down. I took a sick day and stayed in my room for the rest of the night to think.
I thought it was getting a little weird when Eric came to see me. I was thinking I was crazy when I saw him. He knocked on my door and when I opened it he jumped into my arms.
“Your okay! I can’t believe your okay. Where have you been? I have been so worried.” He muttered all at the same time with out letting me go. I pushed him away and took a step back.
“Eric, what are you doing here?” I asked.
“I needed to see if you were okay.” He said. He looked different. He looks like he hasn’t slept in weeks.
“I’m fine but I think you should go.” I said. He made a frown and then started to turn around but stopped. He grabbed me firmly by the arm and bent me down and gave me a kiss. I felt the world stop. When he pulled away we just stared into each others eyes.
“I cant do this. Not again.” I told him and I tried to shut the door but he opened it and came in.
“I love you. Please, I promise it will be different this time.” Eric said but that made me tick.
“Different! Thats what you said the million other times I gave you another chance! You always say its going to be different but it never will. You are the same person you were when you broke my heart last time!” I had to take a breath before saying anything else. When I did I saw a tear, rolling, slowly down his cheek.
“I’m sorry. I always threw you away. You didn’t deserve that. I’m sorry!” He said.
“Do you have radar or something. Every time I leave or are happy you swoop right in.” My voice got quieter. “Not this time. If I trust you again and you turn out to be the same...... I just don’t know what I would do.”
“I understand but I love you. I know I don’t deserve you but I do love you and-” I cut him off before he finished the sentence. I put my hand over his mouth and I saw another tear. This time it hit my hand. When it did I felt everything he did. It was incredible. I felt so sad and I felt like I wanted me to say yes but before I knew it I kissed him. I don’t know why but I did. He kiss back and then I pulled away.
“I cant believe I just did that!” I said. I held my head and paced back and forth. I stared at him for a while. Then he held out his arms and I jumped into them. “I love you, I love you, I love-” Then he kissed me. “You.” I finished saying. But then I hit reality and pulled away from his warm, passionate, arms. I hated myself for it but I had to do it. “What am I doing. I cant do this again.”
“Jill, I promise it will be different and to prove it I will wait here with you until you want to come home.” He said. I smiled and nodded and he came it. I made dinner for us. While we were eating I had a few questions for him.
“Why did you come and find me?” I asked. He looked up from his plate.
“I missed you.” Then he corrected himself. “We missed you.”
“I’m not going back. I cant go back.” I said, then he stood up from his seat and came to the other side of the island to were I was sitting. He stood behind me and rubbed my shoulders.
“It will be okay. Everything happens for a reason.” Then I turned around and we kissed. He pushed the food off the counter and lifted me up on it. We made out for what seemed like hours. He was on top of me when there was a knock at the door. It was the manager. When I opened the door I was buttoning up my blouse because Eric had unbuttoned it.
“Is everything okay up here?” He asked looking around suspiciously. “I heard a crashed then things banging around.”
“Oh I’m sorry I dropped my plate.” I answered and then Eric came to the door with no shirt and I pushed him out of sight.
“How old is he?” The manager asked.
“17