Last Words - zzmbrashear (icecream ebook reader TXT) 📗

going on 18.” I answered.
“And how old are you?” He asked.
“Marty, I’m fine okay. Go back to your wife alright. I will be in bright and early for my shift.” I said reassuringly.
“If you ever need anything you know were to find me.” He said while still looking around. When I closed the door Eric slammed me against it and we forcefully made out. Not in a mean way but a sexy way.
“I thought he’d never leave.” He mumbled between kissing my neck. He lifted me while we kissed to my bed. He slowly laid me down and laid on me. I switched and went to the top. By this time I was topless and he was almost naked. When he tried to take my panties off I stopped him.
“Eric.” I said. Then he took his hands off me and sat up.
“Too fast?” He asked.
“I love you I do but I’m only 16 and I know I’m almost 17 but I don’t think I’m that ready.” I said while grabbing his shirt, putting it on and buttoning it up. “You can sleep in my bed and I will make a bed on the floor.” I said. I put on a pair of shorts.
“No I will take the floor.” He said. I knew he felt weird because I turned him down so I had to do something. I leaned him down and laid on him with my leg wrapped around him.
“We will share the bed.” I said while giving him a kiss. I could tell the weirdness her felt was gone. I took off the shorts but kept his shirt on. He kept his boxers on. When I crawled into bed he wrapped his arm around me and we face the same way so we couldn’t see each others face. He braced me and I grabbed his arm to pull him tighter. When he fell asleep I heard another knock on the door. When I answered it it was the manager again.
“I’m sorry about not giving you privacy but I know your only 16 and I wanted to make sure your okay.” He said.
“Can we talk outside. Eric is sleeping.” I closed the door behind me and we stood outside my room.
“I heard him slam you against the door and I heard him throw the plate and I heard him slam you on the island.” He said while turning and giving me a serious look.
“We didn’t have sex. I told him no. All that was was rough making out and I know we got close but I wouldn’t let it happen.” I said. He smiled and gave a sigh of relief.
“Jillian, your like a daughter to me and the Mrs. and me wanted to make sure you were okay and if tries to pressure you send him to me.” He said will showing me his guns. I giggled and we hugged and wished each other a good night. Marty was right I was like a daughter to him but he was also a father to me. When I got inside Eric woke up and asked who was at the door.
“It was Marty, the manager. He just wanted to remind me about work in the morning.” I said sounding very unconfident.
“Oh. Is everything okay?” He asked. He was sounding suspicious.
“Yeah, its fine. So lets get back to bed.” I said. I got a drink of water to cool off. I cant believe that I was sleeping with Eric. It just feels so weird. When I think about it I could see us living together but I never actually thought it would happen. When I got back in bed he put his arm around me. I tensed up.
“Whats wrong?” He asked. “Am I making you uncomfortable?”
“No, Eric, no. I’m fine, just a little tired thats all.” I said but he wasn’t satisfied with the answer. “I’m going to sleep on the floor.” He started to get up but I pulled him back.
“I’m not uncomfortable! I want you to sleep with me!” I said. I noticed I raised my voice but then quieted down.
“I can tell you feel weird and I don’t want to go to far.” He said. He tried to get up but this time I pounced on top of him. I started to make out with him and pull what little clothes he had on off.
“Would someone who is uncomfortable do this?” I asked while still undressing him. I was determined to make a point.
“Stop Jill, I get it okay.” He stated. He stood up and put his clothes back on. He picked me up and laid me on the bed. He covered me up and laid beside me comforting me, tightly. “I love you.” He said. I acted like I was sleep but I wasn’t. I didn’t want to go too far but I know Eric did and I felt weird by making him wait.

May 17, 2010

Eric is still with me and I look back at the night before and I think I was crazy. How could I go that far with someone who never cared a second about me. I didn’t want to get up in the morning but I did anyway. I got a cup of coffee and sat at the island. I still had his button up shirt with my underwear on. I heard a knock at the door. When I went to open it I tried to hide behind the door but as soon as I saw it was Brandon I froze. The door swung open.
“Babe, who is it?” Eric said while still in his underwear and wiping his eyes. He put his arm around me and kissed my cheek. He didn’t know that Brandon was at the door but when he saw him he ran to my room to grab himself a shirt. Brandon gave me a look I would never forget. He was so sad and pissed at the same time. He ran off and sprinted down the hallway. I ran after him. I caught him at the elevator. We both stepped in and I pressed the emergency stop button.
“Talk to me.” I said. He turned his back to me. “Brandon!”
“Fine do you want to talk?!? Then tell me why he is here!” He screamed. I saw tears in his eyes. I shook my head and looked down. “He don’t love you. I do. I care about you. I would never let you go. You need to understand this.”
“I’m sorry. He showed up. We didn’t do anything. I tried to get away but everybody tried to find me. I don’t want to be found.” I said. My voice got silent after a while. He ran up to me and embraced me. I looked up and we kissed. I had no idea what I was doing. I pulled away. “Brandon.” I paused for a while trying to think what I should do. “You know whats best for me. You care and actually feel something for me. When I cry so do you. I love you but your like a brother to me. I know Eric may not always treat me right but I feel more comfortable with him. I’m sorry.” He looked away. Then kissed me again. He pulled me so tight. He was so soft and wonderful. He wouldn’t let me pull away.
“I feel sparks every time we kiss. I feel time stop. You are my true love and if you don’t know it now thats okay because you will know it later.” He said. I felt so bad. So I kissed him. This time neither of us pulled away. We just stood making out. He picked me us and I sat with my legs around him. For some reason the emergency stop unlocked and Eric must have taken the stairs because he was waiting for me when the elevator opened. I didn’t know the emergency stop unlocked so when it opened and Eric was waiting there I was still kissing Brandon. He was still standing. My legs were still around him. His tongue was still in my mouth. I was so embarrassed because Eric just got out of my bed and I’m making out with his best friend in the elevator.
“Jillian!” Eric screamed. He pulled me off Brandon and started to punch him. There was so much blood. Brandon’s nose looked broken and we needed to take him to a hospital. I filled out all the information. His nose was broken. I felt so bad.
“Brandon, I’m sorry. I lost control. Its just when I saw her with you it made me so mad.” Eric said to Brandon.
“Are you jealous that she may actually like me?” He asked Eric.
“Yes. I’m so worried about losing her.” Eric said. I was suppose to be getting Brandon a drink from the vending machine and they didn’t know that I was back and listening but I heard the whole conversation.
“I had to spend so many painful years of watching you with her. Cant you give me a chance?” Brandon asked. Eric answered an answer that I thought would never come out of his mouth.
“Yes.” He said. He walked out and didn’t say another word until he walked up to me. He grabbed my hair and kissed me.
“I cant.....” He muttered after he pulled away from the kiss
“Cant what?” I asked but he didn’t answer. “Eric you cant what?” I asked again in a louder tone.
“He loves you so much and he knows whats right for you.” He muttered again.
“Who? Brandon? Eric no. I love you, not him.” I was going to say more but he cut me off.
“He hurts just because I am near you. He is my best friend, Jill. I cant do that to him.” He stared to walk away but I stopped him.
“Do that to him? What about doing that to me?!?” I said with a firm grip on his arm.
“Jill, you don’t understand. You can be happy with him. Please just try.” Then he left. I screamed his name so he would come back but he didn’t Week after week I pray to get a call from him, but nothing. Not a call or letter or word. I can’t believe he just left. I love him and I chose him but that wasn’t good enough. Brandon tried to call but I ignore him. I know its not his fault but seeing him might remind me of Eric. Brandon saw me in person a few days ago.
“Why wont you talk to me?” He asked while putting his foot in the door so I cant shut it.
“This is what you wanted. Eric is gone, okay. Know please leave.” I said politely.

“This is not what I wanted! I wanted you to be happy and your not! What can I do?” He asked. I believed he really wanted to help but I had to at least give him a try.

May 26, 2010

Its been about a week and a half since I wrote to you. I’m beginning to forget. About the bad and good of Eric. Brandon helps. Its like he fills the void in my heart. He doesn’t make the hurt go away but I like him. He hasn’t tried anything with me and that makes me feel better. Since it Vacation and he has Foster parents we stay together in my hotel room.
“Good morning gorgeous. I made breakfast.” He said as he pointed to the plate on the kitchen table that had bacon, eggs and toast on it.
“Thanks.” I mumbled under my breath. Having Brandon around made me uncomfortable because I’m not use to him always around me. I think