The Boy Has Love - Breana (i can read with my eyes shut txt) 📗

"I don't know what to do..."I kept telling myself over, and over again.
I was laying on my bed, with out the blankets on me. I was, also, throwing my teddy bear up into the air and catching it, thinking love is stupid.
My boyfriend cheated on me several times, and I took him back every time. But now, I knew I just ruined my life for loving/liking a guy for so long, and taking him back.
"I can't believe him!"I screamed inside of my head.
I couldn't stand the fact he was probably making out with another girl right now, while I'm laying alone, in my room, throwing a bear up in the air, crying.
After about 30 minutes, my cell phone began to ring, and I just had to answer it.
"Hello?" I said through the phone.
"Hey Raven, I am going to go to that youth group tonight, you wanna come? I can take you,"Misty my best friend told me.
"Hm, I thought you couldn't drive people around unless they're family,"I said to her.
She took a deep breath,"we'll be fine, we look like we're 18, even though we're 16 1/2, but still, it'll be okay, so you wanna come or not?"
"Sure, lemme tell my mom, so head on down here,"I said getting off my bed, and placing my teddy bear on my pillow.
"Alright, see you in a few,"she hung up, and I ran downstairs to mom who was in the living room with Brian, my older brother, and his friend John.
"Mom, I'm goin' to the youth group with Misty tonight, she'll be here in a few,"I told her putting on my black and white converse sitting on the leather couch.
"What time will you be home,"she asked placing her drink on the coffee table.
"Hmm, when ever it ends. Which I don't know what time, 'cause I haven't been there in years,"I told her tying my last converse.
"Alright,"she said putting her hands on her laps, and leaning back on the seat she was in.
"So, John wants to know something,"Brian told me.
"Hm?"I said looking at Brian and John.
"Come with us,"Brian said getting up while pausing Black Ops on the XBOX360.
I looked at mom with confusion, and got up from the couch and followed the guys to the kitchen.
When I made it inside, Brian closed the door by sliding it.
"Do you like him?"He asked sitting on the counter grabbing a apple.
I looked at John, and then at Brian,"I don't know, why?"I asked.
John sat next to Brian in awkwardness.
"Because, he likes you,"Brian said looking at the apple closely.
"Alright then?"I said tapping the counter.
Brian took a bite of the red apple, and looked at John who was staring out the window. I could tell he was nervous. I mean yeah, I liked John, but probably not enough to date him. Plus, he's like another brother to me. He comes over almost every day, and always stays the night.
"So,"Brian chewed his apple,"do you like him?"
I still tapped on the counter, thinking if I should say yes or no..."yeah, but-"
"Great, now John ask her out,"Brian said taking another bite of his apple.
I turned around to see Misty coming into the kitchen,"come on Raven, we needa' go. And sorry if I interupted your guyses meeting, but Raven and I need to leave...like now,"She said walking backwards out of the kitchen.
I looked at John, who was about to say something,"bye guys,"I said with a little wave.
John looked at Brian who was chewing his apple, and then me,"bye,"he replied.

When Misty and I made it to her truck, I kept thinking about John, and I began to like him more. But I knew, I didn't want our friendship to get ruined...
"So what exactly were you guys talking about in the kitchen?"Misty asked driving towards the town where the youth group would be.
"Hmmm, John likes me, and I kinda like him, so he was gonna ask me out right when you walked in,"I said.
"Oh, well, there's gonna be a lot of hot guys at youth group tonight, so don't bother going out with him and ruining your friendship, plus you just got through a horrible break up,"she said.
"I know,"I sighed, and placed my elbow right next to the window, and made a fist, and rested my cheeck on it.

Once we made it to the youth group, on the door to get in, there was age groups.

4pm-7:30pm AGES 12-15
7:30pm-11pm Ages 16-18
Monday-Saturday
Please don't lie about ages!
YOU HAVE TO HAVE A CARD TO GET IN.
IF YOU ARE NEW, TELL THE OWNERS AND THEY WILL GIVE YOU A CARD FOR THE SUMMER.
Please Have fun, and please behave!

I read the sign,"I don't have a card anymore,"I told Misty.
"Alright, come on,"she walked me through the doors.
Right when we walked in there was a guy, probably around his 20's, who was sitting behind a counter. He had tattoos, and piercings. He was more like an emo type of person.
"Hey Misty,"he smiled grabbing her card,"who's your friend?"
"Oh, this is Raven. She's been here before, but that was a couple years ago, so um she needs a card,"Misty told him.
"Alright, one sec.,"he said placing her card on the counter.
Misty grabbed it, and put it in her pocket.
"So, Raven, you know all the rules here, right?"The guy asked.
I nodded my head yes, and looked at Misty who was skimming through a magazine on the counter.
"You're the quiet-kinda person, huh?"He asked typing something in his computer.
"Yeah she is,"Misty told him while closing the magazine.
"Ahh, well, I need your name, and age, and um, I think that's it,"He said,"and by the way, my name is Zack."
"Alright,"I said.
"Yeah! Your first word,"he teased with a smile.
I kind of giggled, and told him my first and last name, and age.
Once I got my card, he scanned it and we headed to the other doors to get into the actual party room thing.
Where we were at, wasn't really a youth group. It was more just like a hang out place where you meet new people...but a couple years ago when Misty and I went, it was more like a youth group, so we call it that.
"Hey Misty,"a guy about 17 or 18 said waving at her.
He had black hair, with blond strikes. It was like a guy scene hair. He also wore eye liner it looked like, and he had snake bites. He was actually really cute.
Anyway, he was sitting on a red couch with a couple other guys, and smiling at Misty who grabbed my arm and walked me to the couches where he was.
"Hey Zane, this is Raven, my best friend. She's kinda new here, so um yeah. And Raven, this is Zane, he's like my older brother,"Misty introduced.
I smiled at him, and he smiled back. He began to check me out, like, he looked from bottom to top of me.
"Well, I'll let you two get to know each other,"Misty said to Zane and I.
Zane looked at Misty, and kind of smiled, and watched her walk away with Zane's group of people.
I sat down next to him, and got nervous very quickly. I had no clue what to say, and I felt weird...
"So, how are you?"He asked looking at me.
His voice was sweet, and deep...but not too deep to where it sounds weird. Okay, he had the perfect voice.
"Um, nervous,"I said looking back at him.
He smiled,"why is that?"
I shrugged my shoulders, and noticed Misty was messing around with the person who looked like was in charge of the music.
A song began to play through the speakers all over the room, and I looked around to see people flirting, hugging, holding hands, kissing, talking, and dancing. But Zane and I...were sitting, and getting to know each other...
"I'm just a really shy person and don't talk to people I haven't met before,"I said looking back at Zane.
"Ah, well, you can talk to me, 'cause you know me now,"he still smiled.
I kind of giggled, and looked away from Zane to Misty who was really close to Zack. I was shocked, and wondered why he's here. Shouldn't he be behind the counter? I thought.
"Wanna dance?"Zane asked.
I kind of shook my head,"no, I don't dance. I don't look like a dancer, do I?"I smiled looking back at Zane.
It's true, I look nothing like a dancer. I have black scene hair, with a feather, I wear bright or dark colored skinny jeans, weird shirts, and converse or Vans.
"Nah, you don't look like one...honestly,"he said.
I laughed a little, and looked back at Misty wishing she was sitting next to me so things wouldn't be so awkward with Zane and I.
"Yeah, um, where's the bathroom?"I asked looking around.
He stood up, and held his hands out so I could take them. I did, and he pulled me up, and let go of my hands.
"Follow me, ma'am,"he smiled.
I did as he said with a little giggle and smile, and he walked to a long hallway in the back of the room. Once we made it to the bathrooms he said,"I'll stand here and wait, 'cause I don't wanna lose you."
I opened the door, and stood there, thinking what he ment by that. Like, did he mean, he didn't want to lose me in the crowd...or, he didn't want to lose me, because he knows something will happen tonight?
"Alright,"I said walking into the bathroom.
I closed the door behind me, and walked to the sink and mirror